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2009-02-23T21:12:00.003+08:00

months has pass and perhaps things has turn better.. but grandma's health has been deteriorating.. through this months of hardships maybe I have really grown up and be more matured in ways of thinking.. I know I still have my lovely family and friends around me to be there for me.. someone said that my friends are there for me but is in emotionally not physically which I found that is quite true.. everybody is busy with their lifes, work, studying or relationship.. well, sometimes I do really need a person presence there but no avail.. I am quite suprised that I can actually hold back when such a event happen to me.. the one time i broke down is only the day when it turn everything upside down. and that's it! no one has seen me in such a state after that time.. everything will just buried down under.. JASLIN IS A BIG GIRL NOW!

2009-01-25T03:04:00.002+08:00

all I can say now is.. I am not as strong as what I am.. I don know how long can I take it.. I really really wish to have a long sleep.. keep away all the doubts.. I am tired!

2008-12-29T01:36:00.008+08:00

today spend the whole afternoon at home being a couch potato. in the evening, prepare myself and went to meet the stupid woman at pastamania in westmall. so happy to meet her after so long and she is back from her m'sia trip. chatting while eating, chatting after eating. then we walk around to get some stuff and went to coffeebean to continue chatting. she said the chai tea latte taste like apple pie! haha.. and time for the gift exchange!!! she got me what I wanted to buy and is a need and just nice I bought something to replace her needs. GREAT MIND THINKS ALIKE! but her gift really very special. she made a DIY music gift box for me. and i really like it a lot! hope she like the card that I made for her as well! time for photo taking and we cont taking photo in the toilet. soon we will be meeting up again! and I never forget to update the photo album that she given to me last year! LOVE YA STUPID WOMAN!

2008-12-28T02:19:00.002+08:00

christmas is over and perhaps this christmas isn't a great time for me afterall.. people gathering and enjoying themselve while me hiding behind the doors and staying at home.. but on christmas itself is not that bad.. went over to aikho hse for a small gathering and xmas gift exchange.. made a card for aikho and wenting.. you girls really mean a lot to me! thanks for everything! a hug that make me feel so warm and perk me up that day! new year is coming.. starting to think of resolutions.. but all I wan now is jus a simple happiness.. people having fun out there enjoying and some are working but all I can do is to stay at home for now.. things are beyond my control.. but I will still try my best no matter what happen. just give me a lil more strength!

2008-12-16T18:44:00.002+08:00

though exams is over and I should be happy about it but I guess this is the worst holidays i ever had! A great blow that i cannot accept and make my life from colours to grey sky. I feel disappointed, cheated, betrayed, hurt, fear and many many doubts. has your image being tarnished? I really don know.. All I know is I need and I must be strong! I need to press on no matter what happen! but how long can I press on? I really have no idea..

2008-11-27T21:32:00.010+08:00

gonna post up a few photos that I taken when I went to japan for my holidays.. though I know is been like almost 2 months.. haha.. enjoy the photos!

MY TOTAL BARANGS:

3 top from GAP
1 puma pumps
1 nike jacket
1 burbery bluelabel bag
1 burberry bluelabel wallet
2 boxes FANCL TENSE UP collagen drink
3 mascara
1 shishedo eyeliner
1 shishedo eyelash curler
1 shishedo eye shadow
1 shishedo lipgloss
1 kanebo eyeshadow
3 boxes kose moisturizing mask

MY BARANGS!

FREAKING CHEAP COSMETICS!

TRUCKLOADS OF TIBITS

THE RAMEN AND CUP NOODLES

THE SASHIMI PLATTER (SGD100)

AND IT TASTE SO FRESH!

3 PIECES KOBE QUALITY BEEF (SGD 300)

AT MT FUJI

MT FUJI FROM AFAR

RAINBOW BRIDGE IN TOKYO

GINZA IN TOKYO

2008-11-09T22:18:00.003+08:00

I know I haven been updating my blog close to a month. the reason is I have to entertain a tourist that came from philippines to singapore for her holiday! and is none other than MARIA ALEXANDRIA MIJARO.. she is aikho's friend which turn to be our friend. haha. been going out almost everyday with her since last week until today she went back to philippines. overall, I think all of us have lots of fun with her even though we are dead tired almost everyday. is like I'm used to having her around in the cliques. But poor me always got bullied by her but it was really nice knowing her! after this few weeks of going out, I am proud to announce that I AM COMPLETELY BROKE! as in really really BROKE! poor me! now no one will say EEKSS and thick thick ring with me! haha. today wake up early in the morning though I was overslept but me, wt and aikho still make it to send her off at the airport. and she was kinda of shocked seeing us. I AM SO GONNA MISS HER THE STUPID SHITTY SHITTY!!!

2008-10-12T22:12:00.005+08:00

yesterday went to genia hse first to put the gift that i bought in japan as some stuff have to be put in the fridge. after that we went to take a bus down to cityhall and we shop around agnes b and coach. both of us were looking for the wrislet and she looking for a wallet. I have no more money buying the wrislet as I have bought my burberrys wallet BUT i still wan the wrislet!!! see how it goes! after that we headed our way to marina sq and went to shop around and i suggested to watch a movie, we decided to watch "HOUSE BUNNY". and i treated her for the movie. Before that we went to pasta waraku for dinner as she promise to treat me a meal after she got her pay for working. and I GOT A FREE TREAT! both of us just simply love the food over there and I hope we will go back there again to try new stuff! after eating we walked around and we got amused to the scooping machine or whatever you call that. inside there is so many cute cute tiny whiny elmo, cookie monster and big bird. hence we decided to give it a try and in the end we spent $12 on the machine and we got 4 miny toys. I got big bird and cookie monster while she got big bird and elmo. enough of catching we went to catch our movie, it was kinda of a hilarious show. after movie went to mac to get a drink and we took a bus home.

stupid woman! thanks for your treat yesterday! love spending time with you everytime. never fail to open my heart and talk to you! hope we can go out soon again. and seventh PLEASE MEET UP SOON! LOVE YA!

p.s will update my japan trip on the next post! look out for it! :)

2008-09-30T22:53:00.002+08:00

I AM AWAY TO JAPAN TILL THE NEXT WEDNESDAY!!!

BAO BEI AND AIKHO!!! THANKS FOR SENDING ME OF TO THE AIRPORT! LOVE YA BOTH SO MUCH! AND THANSK FOR YOUR MINI LUGGAGE! AND THANKS TO COCO AS WELL! LOVE YA ALL MUCH! WILL MISS YOU!

STUPID WOMAN! I WILL DEFINITELY MISS YOU! WAIT FOR MY RETURN! AND I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO YOUR TREAT! LOVE YA!

2008-09-21T02:36:00.003+08:00

just came back from MOS just now and waiting for my hair to dry before I turn into bed.. went to MOS with aikho, baobei, netha, merv, kelvin, jon, ron, justin and nic.. went there to actually celebrate and destress after our exams.. before that I actually having dinner with my parents at meritius mandarin but since we finish early so I just went to meet them and off we go to MOS.. finally exams is over, I have put in my effort in the exams but except for microecons.. I guess I just screwed up the entire paper.. but is over and I don wanna talk abt it.. been depriving of sleep and I need to get it all back.. haha.. though I only have a few days to rest before working for the F1 race in conrad but still going out and resting at home.. a couple of things to do for this coming few days..

things to do:
trimming my hair
buying an office pants
adidas warehouse sales
shopping with baobei to get her things
movie ( perhaps alone )
getting mum a cake for her birthday
packing up my messy table
try to pack my luggage for my trip to japan ( I totally have no TIME after F1 )
bringing aikho out for a meal

and I am so DISAPPOINTED as my COACH WRISLET IS OUT OF STOCK!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-09-14T01:31:00.002+08:00

this past one week we have finally finished all our projects presentation.. and one of my relative has jus past away on wednesday. she jus admitted to hospital on last sat and doctor has diagnosed her final stage of cervix cancer.. but things happen just too fast for us to accept that she has gone.. but life still has to go on for us.. jus that i am very heartache for her as she do not has a proper funeral wake prepared by her family.. her brother which is my auntie's husband actually requested to cremate her the following day.. we cant say much as this is their family problems.. i jus find it very heart wrenching.. anyway, next week is my starting of exam and today i actually meet up with aikho and ah nek at m. sq to study accounts and we headed to charcoal for our dinner.. they have revamp the whole charcoal and the food definitely taste much nicer than before.. I can't wait for my trip to japan with mom this coming october.. and hopefully we will be able to get the burberry blue label bag and I think i will be getting back tons of make up.. but before that I hope to meet up with my lovely stupid woman soon! YOU SEE THIS? haha.. I am waiting.. I miss you so much! gonna mug for for the next one week for exams!

2008-08-31T21:45:00.002+08:00

a series of unfortunate event of the past one month.. be it a sad or happy ending but life still have to go on.. so many things happened and at the time we are rushing our projects.. so far we left with our BQT OPTS presentation, QS&POC presentation and our individual POC report to complete.. seems like everything is back to a square.. only i know what i meant.. certain things has changed and I am glad that I have actually letting go.. because I know is not worth at doing all this to someone.. they have their circles of people but too sad to say I am not in this circle.. in another way, I should be glad because I wont get influence by them on my own feelings.. be strong! i know who i can count on and i know who is just a normal passer by that came into my life.. I am tired of getting used and leaving aside when people are having their happy moments.. history will not repeat again! few days back, mum bought a coach signature classic business bag while I bought a wrislet! OOPS! i bet someone is jealous! haha... joking lar! you have no idea how much I MISS YOU! STUPID WOMAN! I cant wait for another girls night out with you!

my silly bao bei! welcome back! I REALLY REALLY MISS YOU SO MUCH! without you life is so bored and I cant have peace when aikho is sitting beside me calling JASLIN~! and I know you cant wait to go for sushi, steamboat and picnic.. we shall fulfill al these some day! LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

2008-08-18T00:47:00.003+08:00

friday nights after doing proj at my hse i was online.. saw the stupid woman GENIA.. had a chat with her and in the end I physco her to come my hse ton.. since granny is away for holiday to S.Africa till the next saturday.. in the end she came over to my hse and ton.. she reached at about 11pm thn we start chatting and I start ranting and this woman came over my hse to do MANICURE! chatting (gossiping) till all the way to about 3am the next day then we both went to bed.. early in the morning she left about 9.30am thn I went back to my sleep all the way till close to 3pm in the noon.. after that me and mum went to meet auntie and her sons at suntec to have dinner and after that they went to buy late night movie tickets while me and mum went to TANGS warehouse sales.. saw my cousin summer selling "the station" brand of clothes.. walk round we we don have much time to shop since is already closing.. we went to starbucks coffee to chill till about 12 am thn the 5 of us went to watch movie and after that we cab home. the following day which is today, mum woke me up early at about 10am and then off we go to TANGS warehouse sales again to buy the rest of the stuff.. and I can say is everything is worth the price!!! after that went to have lunch at marina sq at imperial palace.. took a bus back home and took a short nap and off I went to bao bei hse to do proj.. that all for now..

my barangs that I bought:

armani perfume 75ml for $59
glittering mascara at $20
1 purple top
2 black school skirts at only $8.10 from "the station"
1 bedsheet
1 curtain

2008-08-13T01:02:00.003+08:00

saw this poem.. just wanna share to people.. maybe a lil encouragement for me and everyone!

For Everything There’s a Season

By:Joy E. Walker Steward

We may not know the reason

For all of life’s suffering and pain,

But we know everything has its season,

So the sunshine will follow the rain;

There are even times when the sun shines

While the rain is still pouring down,

Those moments of grace God sends us,

Reminders that He’s still around;

So when adversity’s fire is burning,

Expect a cooling breeze;

Know that God is right in it with you

As He moves your growth to achieve;

Embrace His tender compassion

But yield to His discipline too

For the father loves each of his children

And knows best how to nurture you;

When life’s pruning is painful,

Don’t let bitterness enter your soul,

For when pruning is done you’ll be better,

Your heart and your spirit whole;

So if this is your season for weeping,

Know your tears will end with the night,

For joy always comes in the morning

When faith gives way to sight.

2008-08-05T20:56:00.002+08:00

finally I have released all my grievances to my stupid baobei.. I don know how long can I take it, there is a limit to everything.. but yet I chose to keep mum about as I don wan to make the matter worse.. I agreed with what she said.. sometimes is good to be ignorant.. at least you won't get hurt that much.. anyway, shall not talk about is anymore.. need to focus on my upcoming progress test and my TONS and TONS of PROJECTS!

1. bao bei.. if you see this, just want to say thanks for today! I really appreciate what you have told me.. at least I know what to do from now on. thanks for everything! LOVE YOU!

2. Laogong Darling.. next week is our date! don last min ps me.. is been a long time since the both of us has time of ourself! :)

3. STUPID WOMAN! meet up soon yea! now is my turn to turn busy! but still I wan to meet up with you! I really need you badly! oops! but is true! I know I can rely on you! :)

2008-08-04T19:47:00.004+08:00

Before I get my ass down to work on my projects, just want to express out my feelings that I had in my heart for some time.. seriously speaking I wasn't in a good mood for the past few days.. things turning badly be it in family and other stuff.. though I get to know the truth, but truth is always hurting.. I am tired being the on taking the first step.. friends keep telling me to back off and letting it go.. I tried and I still trying.. honestly speaking, is really difficult but I do not wan more hurt to fall on me.. but why do I feel so upset.. have you really thought of my feelings? life is never fair and yes I know.. we have drifted lesser and lesser topics to talk about.. things has revolved and change..

2008-07-30T20:57:00.003+08:00

PROJECTS PROJECTS AND MORE PROJECTS
PROGRESS TEST IS COMING UP!!!!

I really need to manage my time well.. this term of subjects is so dry and difficult.. microecons and POA is already a killer to me.. is so hard to understand! want to update for some time but seems like I do not have the time.. haha..

finally after waiting for few months my long waited longchamp has arrived and gonna collect is very very soon.. tml will be a very tight schedule for me.. after school gonna go play badminton with few of my schoolmates and after that I have to rush down to sunset way for 2N3 gathering.. a day where the seventh looking forward to.. misses the time when we always have chalet and having so much fun.. I can't wait for tml to come!!!

2008-07-09T20:40:00.005+08:00

to my STUPID WOMAN and JUDI! don say I never update abt my HK trip and HERE IT IS! been back for 3 days already.. and I hate my coming flight back to SG! It DELAYED for 2HRS!!! and after all the waiting I reached SG at abt 1.30am on MON instead of 11pm on Sun.. overall the HK trip is not a bad one after all but just that had a little conflict with mom and dad.. but is was still ok overall.. Dad comes along with us so that means I CAN REALLY DO SHOPPING! haha.. enjoyed the night scenic at the victoria peak and food over there just simply taste so delicious.. though we had most of your meals at 茶餐厅 but everything just so yummy! you really can't compare SG to HK.. especially their Ice milk tea and Roasted goose hor fun soup! and I think I spend about close to 80bucks on buying tidbits back which we can't find in SG..

Things I bought:
2 burberry tops ( one top is only $79 SO CHEAP and another mom bought for me but is $190)
1 papilio sandals
2 Esprit Top
2 pajamas
1 cute umbrella
1 hello kitty towel
truck loads of Junk Food
1 nissin cup noodles tee (EXCLUSIVE in HK)
3 cute tee for my godson

Enjoy these few photos that I have taken

HUGE GIANT box of PRETZ ( shark fin's flavour )

Additional Tidbits till the last day in HK

Tidbits that I bought

MY BARANGS! (still got more) :)

HK new airport terminal

Night scenic At Victoria Peak

Taken at The Avenue of Stars

Day scenic at Victoria Peak

Changi Airport T3

2008-07-02T22:38:00.015+08:00

as promised to someone I decided to blog before I left to HONG KONG for my shopping trip.. shall talk about my birthday.. the day on my birthday then is the highlights.. in the late noon, ah nek, the bungs and jonathan came to my house to surprise me.. anyway, thanks for your surprise visit and thank ah nek for your sins choc.. after they left I prepared myself and off I went to meet my beloved SEVENTH! went to batok station to meet judi and my stupid woman(genia).. took a train down to clarke quay to meet the rest.. khoon lead us the way to minds cafe.. is actually a cafe to relax and trying out different types of boardgames.. many of us were hungry so we ate first.. well, I shall not do much of the talking instead let the photos do the talking!
my dearest SEVENTH:

the 20's
the 19's

the day before my birthday me and my parents went to paragon to have dinner at LAWRYS PRIME RIB to celebrate my birthday.. took a couple of photos during my dining.. their prime rib simply just taste so sinful and scrumptious..

p.s I will be away to Hong Kong for a couple of days and will be back on sunday.. wait for my returns! :)

p.p.s to my dearest seventh.. thanks for the wonderful night you have given me.. it is a very memorable nights.. shall hang out again with you girls very very soon.. thanks for the present! it really suits my taste a lot.. LOVE YOU GIRLS!

p.p.s STUPID WOMAN! I will miss you when i'm there... and I will remember the words that you tell me.. wait for my return and we shall go for our date!:)

2008-06-27T00:57:00.002+08:00

finally I had finished my practical exam and I got back my results.. for both training in rosette and my practical exam i got 78 marks.. quite pleased with myself.. few things are coming up for the nxt few days.. yesterday mum work for half day so i manage to find some time to pass with her.. we went to SA tour to pay a deposit for my trp to HONG KONG and we went to suntec to have dinner with my auntie and cousin at pearl river.. the "Buddha jump over the Wall" jus taste simply delicious.. will defintely going back there for dinner.. we went to robinson before that to look for my cousin.. and I terribly miss my godson!!! is been a long time since i seen him.. gonna look for him on saturday perhaps.. finally tml is the last day in rosette.. finally after 3 months of attachment.. many things has change.. we shall see when school reopens.. i wan to go shopping before i leave HK and I wan to go to MANGO SALES!!! I can only look for the stupid woman!!!! she is the only one that i enjoyed shopping to most.. so many things to talk about and I manage to pour out all my problems and feelings to her..

so GENIA!!! I wan to go shopping before 3rd july.. YOU HEAR ME?!??!?!?! haha..

2008-06-23T23:02:00.003+08:00

TML is the day of my PRACTICAL EXAM!!! wish everything will goes will for me.. hope it won't goes wrong for my fruit carving.. kinda of stress of this past few days.. anyway gonna go practise for my fruit carving.. thanks to dad that he went to buy the fruit for me to practise at the very last min.. ALL THE BEST TO ME AND EVERYONE! =)

4 stations to go through:
fruit carving
cocktail
creative dessert
flambe

just hope things will remain as the way it is.. I am really strained facing all these matters..

2008-06-13T01:33:00.002+08:00

all I can say that is just not a day for many ppl.. my surroundings, my friends seems to be troubled.. including myself.. especially today.. is just so disheartening to see friends being so restless and emo.. and furthermore this whole week is event cathering.. more and more ppl coming as the day goes by.. tml we are expecting abt 120pax.. i wonder how will it look like? mus be damn busy.. some times I feel that having problems will eventually drift friends apart.. not saying all but a few.. I anticipating for the 1 week holiday to come.. shall play with my friends and going to koh samui for a holiday to relax myself.. problems in the family seems to be getting bigger.. and seriously speaking I am kinda of sick and tired of it already.. practical exam is about in 2 weeks time and is time for me to memorize all my cocktails back.. whatever it is.. I JUST NEED THE HOLIDAY BADLY!!!!!

2008-06-06T22:59:00.002+08:00

yesterday went out with aikho after she done finish her bqt in sch.. we went to catch a movie at westmall and we watched "sex and the city".. it was quite a nice show.. is nice if watching it with friends.. after movie we went to imm and i bring her to get her ipod nano.. finally she bought her ipod.. haha.. after that we went to cafe cartel for our dinner.. ordered a casear salad and pasta to share.. and we spent quite a few hours talking.. after so long i broke my silence to her.. haha.. is always nice talking to her.. having a friend that look and handle things maturely and optimistic.. there is quite a lot of things to learn from her.. she never fails to make me laugh.. and took quite a few pictures before we left..

for today meet up with genia.. as usual both of us were late.. there is never a day when we meet up is punctual.. haha.. she isstill later then me.. meet her at bb station and we headed down to bugis for a quick shop.. reach there went to have a little bite and settled dwn at mac.. i told her how i feel when i am hanging around with the others.. is good to have their own partners but some how some couple don really balance their life with friends and love life.. is like every where ppl goes partners will tag along.. and leaving their friends out while they are so lovely dovey.. sometimes it does make their friends feel very uncomfortable.. and making them not to go out witth friends any more.. the more going out you willl feel worse.. you can't enjoy time with friends freely.. luckily i still have genia around! haha.. you should be proud of it! is always the best hanging out with you and the rest of the seven.. that's the time when you can really see the true me.. anyway though is a quick shop at bugis both of us manage to buy a pair of shoes and i bought an extra earrings.. after that headed down back to westmall to meet judi for dinner and then went to coffeebean as usual to chill.. saw willis at coffeebean and as usual i got bullied! lolx.. had a niechat with the both of them but we forget to take photos! shall have the chance again..

2008-05-25T19:35:00.002+08:00

finally marks the end of having attachment at charcoal.. been at rosette for this whole week.. is so much more boring than charcoal.. need to wake up as early as 4.30am in the morning to prepare for morning shift.. I MISS CHARCOAL SO MUCH!!! XD miss the dun and laughter we had.. GSS has started meaning more shopping needed! haha.. been bought quite a lot of clothings recently and today mum bought a longchamp bag for us to share.. haha.. but i am still waiting for my LV bag.. hees..

yesterday after attachment went back home for a rest and went to pearl river palace with my family for dinner... all I can say the food is fantastic! haha.. anywhere.. today went shpping with mum at orchard.. but looks like mum is the one shopping rather than me.. everywhere we goes when mum wan to see shoes i will look for a seat and after that i will fall asleep.. and I am kind of happy as I saw meiyee last week at gelare at citylink.. is been a long time since I last saw her.. maybe for about a year or 2 already.. just hope to catch up with her again.. maybe calling her out for a movie.. miss her so much and the time we spend together..

dear ladies!!! call me out for shopping can?!?!?! I MISS YOU GIRLS BADLY! and laogong darling.. remember to set a date for for the both of us.. and to genia.. please save up for shopping too! and maybe out for a meal.. haha..

lastly... ah nek.. I know you very busy always having so much programs.. set aside a day for the both of us go shopping can? you know wat I wan to buy.. you also wan shopping right? and remember you always have me by your side no matter what happen.. I might not be the closet friend of your or I might not be the one that you will hink of but when you need someone there is always me standing round a corner.. love ya..

2008-05-04T21:35:00.008+08:00

finally I am back! been quite busy with attachment.. everytime wanna update but i'm dead beat to update.. haha.. did some shopping these few days and so far I bought a black pants, black top and a necklace.. is a black again! lolx.. so many black top in my cupboard.. GSS IS COMING!!!! GENIA!!! you know what to do!!! haha.. ask me out for shopping!!! is always the best shopping with you.. my best shopping partner!!! you better recover soon! saw your photos you scared me! haha.. the best part of last week is actually the seven meet up!!! haha.. meeting them up really cheer up my day! no one can compare the 6 of them which brings colour to my life.. my dear seven!!! just simply LOVE ALL OF YOU SO MUCH!!! meet up more often yea..

went for the boat asia show last week for 4 days.. for 4 days I have been doing ushering.. and some days is under the HOT SUN! but for the first day it actually rained heavily.. and all of us were drenched! after 4 days I am BURNT! for the 4 days saw quite a number of nice cars! we get to see 3 lambos, 28 ferraris, 3 audi R8, couple of maserati, rolls royce.. so many cars to see!!!! haha.. the highlight of the days is actually 27 ferraris coming in together to the keppel bay carpark together with some maserati.. it would be better if it is lambo! haha.. but i bet nic was high to see so many of his fav cars! some pictures that I took during the boat asia..

2008-04-24T22:17:00.002+08:00

today I had kind of a very bad day.. seems to be the most cranky day of my life.. everything was a mistake! I shld not go to the boat show.. I felt worse today! it was raining when I make my way there and I am drenched.. having a headache after the rain.. why do i feel that many people start leaving me.. even my parents might be going to china due to dad's work and this time round mum is going along.. if everything confirm they will leave during june.. besides that today I just feel completely OUT!!! everyone having their own partner and I can't say anything.. I give my promise that I will change and I tried.. but ended up all I can do is sitting at a corner while all of you having something to talk about.. I can't fit in neither do I feel comfortable with you all now.. what have i really done to deserve all these?where is everyone when i needed someone to talk to? do you know I felt very torturing just now saying nothing but just continue walking.. until to the point that I can no longer take it and walk away.. shedding my tears behind till my way home? how long can I still take it? I am bearing really very hard.. I was once told that I will not feel left out but why now I feel so lonely? while people can laughing away? is my presence not important or worthless at all?

2008-04-13T22:08:00.002+08:00

thanks to genia.. haha.. called and woke me up to get prepared to go for church.. went for the bilingual service with genia, peishan, victor sir and litle jedd.. he is jus so adorable.. overall the service wasn't too bad as what i expected.. after that victor sir fetch us to go grab a bite at bt panjang thn he fetch me home.. reached home and I take rest after that went to have dinner with mum at imm.. went to buy some groceries and we went home.. mum said that she knows me better than dad does.. and I agreed with what mum said.. been doing attachment for the past one week.. was kinda of busy and feeling so shagged.. but overall still not a bad experience afterall.. meeting my dear other six ladies soon! can't wait to see them.. but I doing afternoon shift lehx!!! HELLO?!??! my six other beautiful ladies I how arhx? haha.. I wan to meet all of you!!! miss you all so much! I wan go sentosa!!!!

2008-04-06T21:17:00.002+08:00

my heart felt heavy today.. last time everyday I keen on going sch meeting with my classmates.. but know recently it has changed.. dreaded to go school or attachement.. honestly speaking I am feeling kind of cranky now.. today went to 3 crematorium to pay respect to my yeye and my great grandparents.. saw a couple of tablet and I feel so sad.. a twins that is born on the day and died on the same day.. there is a baby which is only a few months and she passed away.. but a verse that is on the tablet which is on JOBS.. I find it quite meaningful.. though is a blessings to live in this world but God wants the best of blessing for us.. maybe going up the heaven with Him is the best blessing that the baby have.. after finisg all the visiting we went to have lunch at far eas sq with auntie ruth and her family and I went home to take a nap after that.. woke up and I went for dinner with my parents at a coffeshop near bb central area.. a newly open western food "Botak Jones".. queue for quite some time but the food taste nice.. seriously speaking I am feeling very VEXED now!!! RAHS!!!!! in their mouth saying they are your friends but ended up leaving you aside.. I need affirmations but no one can give me.. ended up I feel disappointed.. I am really trying very hard to adapt.. hard till sometimes I feel so suffocating..

2008-04-03T21:07:00.004+08:00

starting of attachment this week.. is was rather shagged but fun being the bartender for the past 3 days.. I just can't stand that we are actually doing free labour for attachment and furthermore we still need to pay for our attachment.. will update more when I got the time!

you may see me laughing and smiling.. but you will never know that when it is fake and the what is behind the smile.. things changes and will never be the same like the past.. I tried hard but is difficult.. sometimes i feel disappointed but i can't do anything.. is different and I really got to learn to adapt it.. who can I share all my grudges? no one.. is only by myself.. I'm tired but I still got to hang on.. but why does it affect me so much? I am happy now but sometimes thoughts will come to my mind.. some times i wish to run away but it is not a way to avoid it.. what can I do?

2008-03-21T23:01:00.006+08:00

today woke up quite early in the morning about 9.30am.. slack for a while and went to the market with mum for breakfast.. after that I took a bus down to ah nek hse to pass her the tips for exams and help her with some topic.. and again she bully me at her house! haha.. everything ended and I rushed down to panjang plaza as i am meeting peishan, vic sir, genia and shi for a meal and did some gathering.. is been a long time since we gather like this together.. updating about each other life and laughing through the time.. well, we get to start the main topic.. and something just really make sense after what vic sir had said.. I really have neglected something very important in my life.. which is why in the first place do I said the sinners prayer.. and now after leaving the church for so long and today I just understand.. he had said many things that really agreeable and somehow really speaks what my heart has been thinking for this whole time.. the first step is always very difficult but I just need to courage tot take this big step.. I wan to find back the presence of God and His love is always never fails me.. A God that has never gives up on me and loving me always with his abundance of blessings.. yet I have neglected him due to reason that need not really that affect me.. is a relationship with Him and I need not to care at what others are thinking about me.. after all the talk,shi went off first while me and genia went to peishan hse to play with jedd.. grace and issac was there as well.. but they seem to be quite shy.. haha.. Jedd is a very active boy and I get to feed him yoghurt.. haha.. he is just a very adorable child! left the hse after watching the 9pl show and vic sir drive me home together with peishan and jedd..

then on last sun morning received a msg from my ah nek and it really shocked me.. she is being warded to the hospital again.. so went to visit her with justin and came along with nic.. stayed in the hospital for a couple of days and she finally discharged from the hospital on wed.. and this week I had my TR exam and my beverage bordeaux test.. think I did not bad of my TR but for my bev test i shall give it a miss! guess i have flung the paper quite BADLY! =( as for now I have to put full concentration on preparing for my exams next week..

last sat went to hyatt to collect my pay that I work for that 4 days.. though is a bit little but happy that i got some money.. after that went to paragon to meet up with genia for shopping since I just gotten my pay.. after she reached, we decided to head down to m.sq since we don really know where to go.. catch a movie Rule #1 with her.. the first time that i watch a movie with her as in just the 2 of us.. rare to watch a movie with her.. haha.. after movie we went to shop around thn headed to esplanade space @ humble house for dinner.. glad she enjoyed the dinner.. haha.. and we went to esplanade area to take photos.. and again! I CUT MY HAIR THE LAST MINUTE! and is so much shorter than the previous one.. but I LIKE IT! haha..

2008-03-11T21:12:00.002+08:00

yesterday was my class theme party.. went to school in the morning to help out with the deco and prepared the things we need in the pantry.. was looking forward the night party.. everything looks so nice and exciting.. the deco looks so gorgeous and beautiful it just looks like a wedding party.. haha.. everything looks just so nice until we are preparing for the food in the pantry.. me and ah nek were so BOILED.. I just can't take it.. and for the whole night everything just SCREWED UP in the pantry.. and i was damn FU*KING PISSED the entire night.. it just spoils my mood of having fun in the theme party.. and gerrx was not feel well as her eyes having irritation and looks quite bad.. don ever expect me to work with all those ppl in the pantry or any other matters..

you are the one taking in charge yet you are not prepared.. you said you wan to do this certain things yet in the end you are doing other stuff.. ending up forgetting to put 1 of the food in the dish! come on! if you can't do your job properly thn forget about asking ppl to do what they are suppose to do.. you said you wan the easiest job thn so be it.. in the end you didn't even complete the easiest job! and i don see why me and ah nek can wear proper uni for the party and you and others can't? is not a reason that you forgotten to bring.. there is still ample time to go home and change.. and i don see why others can wear slippers thru while me and gerrx have to wear black shoes through the entire day?!?!!?

all I can say is that YOU HAVE SPOILT MY ENTIRE MOOD FOR THAT NIGHT! sorry to say that I am having lots of anger in my stomach.. so just to vent out what I am feeling.. after the theme party ended, i was complaining to mich and colin.. haha.. thanks to my sweetie for hearing me out! thn just help out around to take out the deco and arrange back to the normal position.. when i got the photos will upload again.. finally, thanks to GENIA!! haha.. bring jeff along to support me! I OWE YOU ONCE WOMAN!!! thanks! LOVES! shopping please???? haha..

2008-03-02T23:58:00.018+08:00

today just rested at home till 3.30pm and I went to bath and prepare to go out for dinner with my parents, grandma and cousin.. meet them at interchange and we went to take a bus down to orchard.. bus went pass hilton hotel and I saw 3 lambo parking outside.. make our way to goodwood park hotel.. went to dim sake bar for dinner.. though the restaurant only serve light food but the food do make us feel full.. we ordered quite a no. of dishes and all of them just simply taste delicious.. total bill was abt 230bucks.. quite a reasonable price and dad say we can go back there for dinner again.. all i can say is I had a very sinful dinner tonight.. haha..

succulent juicy xiao long bao shooter!

lobster & scallop kaidafa

well known durian puff

trio tofu

chinese breadsticks

yam & scallop dumpling

oriental fries

friday after school I rushed home to prepare but is still early so I decided to take a nap first.. woke up prepared and i took a train down to meet genia and shi.. on the train was kinda of hungry so I suggested we go to bedok blk85 market for dinner first.. had bak chor mee!! been a long time since I ate.. after dinner went to take a bus down to pasir ris.. was chatting all along the way and was talking about the old times that we used to hang around together.. reached joys b'dae chalet hang around and chat with friends.. took some photos as well.. is been a long time since I saw sheri and yy.. haha.. after staying there for quite some time, shi asked her bf to fetch me and genia home.. so we need not to make a long way back home.. reach home they teach me to play viwawa and now i'm addicted in playing mahjong.. haha..

2008-02-28T21:46:00.002+08:00

hasn't been a good day for me.. some things happen and i'm not feel very well now.. is on my own now.. no more like the past.. or should I say it wil never happen again.. some how is like something broken and it can't be mended back anymore.. even if it is there will always be a scar left behind.. a scar that will always remind you of the pain and things that happen. a scar that you will never forget.. wondering why these few weeks I have been feeling restless.. can't things like just before..? today is just not myself.. words that are meant to buried deep down in my heart.. wanted to say out but I can't.. as what I said.. maybe is better not to initiate matters.. unintentional hurt is always the greatest hurt.. well, I guessed I tried a couple of times already.. everyday putting a strong front is not easy as well.. I wish I am still in secondary school life as it is far much better than what I am facing now.. and recently some problems with my body.. been having nose bleeding.. what is wrong with me? be it physically and emotionally.. maybe i'm mentally drained! is all on my own from now..

2008-02-25T23:17:00.002+08:00

ever since I finished working at hyatt on thurs.. I been practically couching at my sofa for days! being a COUCH POTATO..! haha.. just too lazy to go any where far and Sat jus went to IMM for dinner with mum.. bought a taiwan series vcd and right after I reached home I start watching till the next day morning.. woke up and I couch at the sofa for the whole day just to watch my vcd.. I did nothing but watching and toilet breaks.. even call pizza delivery for dinner.. and I actually finished watching the show within 2 days.. haha.. maybe buying another set of show but the whole set is not out yet.. so I jus have to wait.. meanwhile I have to mug for my beverage progress test first!

2008-02-22T22:11:00.004+08:00

finally I got the time to update.. haha.. shall talk about sunday (17/02/08).. woke up thn when down to cityhall alone to collect the complimentary yusheng from sakae.. on the way there by bus, i saw the $3 million car Pagani Zonda! haha.. after collecting yusheng went to meritus mandarin to look for the car.. and took some pictures.. reached home and prepared the stuff for steamboat.. finally the complete seven were there that night.. I am really happy to see them again! is been a long time since we saw grace.. haha.. my seven reached first so they had their steamboat.. as usual talking many craps.. from the past to the future! so many things to talk about.. haha.. is really so nice to have the 6 of them appearing in my life and bring me so much fun! brought up many memories we have in school.. haha.. of course we have to take photos since the complete seven is there.. haha! then came my shatec friends.. so have to entertain both sides.. but I still have so much fun with them! after the seven had left the rest of us begin to gamble a little since is still new year that time.. haha.. won a few bucks.. as for these past few days.. been busy working in grand hyatt banquet dept.. was very busy as they were preparing for a few big events.. make me so shagged and having muscles ache all over.. still nose bleed during wed.. after I reached home it start to bleed again.. anyway.. thanks to my daddy as he came back from his workplace early in the morning just to fetch me to work by 6.15am.. finally today I get to off and rest at home.. I sleep like a log for about 14hrs.. haha..

2008-02-12T22:38:00.000+08:00

STEAMBOAT!!!
to my dear SEVEN.. I'll be having a steamboat this coming sunday (17/02/08) at evening about 5pm..
Hope to see you girls around! PLEASE LET ME KNOW IF YOU CAN MAKE IT A NOT..!
Preferably by this FRIDAY(15/02/08)
take this chance to gather yea..? :)

2008-02-03T21:33:00.000+08:00

yesterday woke up abt 1pm and saw no one is at home.. so I called mum and ask her whewre is she.. so after bathing off i went to take bus down to suntec city to look for her and my aunt.. reach there was feeling kinda of hungry as I had nothing to fill my stomach so we went to gelare for a waffle ice cream.. haha.. the waffle is simply too nice! after that walk around suntec and we went to carrefour.. after that aunt and her son went home so me and mum decided to shop around and walk to citylink to wait for dad to come and join us for dinner.. so I practically drag mum to every jewellery shop in citylink.. haha.. till we reached LEE HWA and finally I eyed on a diamond ring.. haha.. simple and nice.. most of all they are having discount!!! haha.. wait for dad to come and dragged him into the store.. so in the end me and mum bought the same ring.. but need to collect on mon as they do not have our size.. after that I asked them to go esplanade to wait for me while i queue up at the info counter to get free gift and lucky draw chances.. practically what free gift they are offering I have it all as we spend quite a lot of money.. haha.. and I get a free sakae Yu Sheng.. so need to find 1 day to go collect before it expires.. haha.. after that walked to esplanade and look for them at space @ humble house.. we are having dinner over there.. though the menu is very very limited and they change every week and every dish is simply too delicious! haha.. after dinner took a bus back and I went to meet my laogong darling soo hoon at coffeebean.. is jus so nice meeting up with her and chill at one corner.. as usual have a cup of earl grey as I wan to drink something light after eating too much.. but in the end still order a brownie but i shared with her.. haha.. chatting around and all the juicy gossips.. haha.. and I told her my problem as well.. finally I can speak out what I want that have been pondering in my heart of many many weeks.. is not easy to do so and facing it everyday in front of them.. is hard but i still have to stay strong in front and be optmistic.. but no one knows how hurt I am until i told her yesterday.. thanks LGD! you are the best! and I hope to get to see her on tues!! SOON SOON SOON! haha..

today jus practically rotting at home as I am feeling kinda of tired.. and finally I did my SPRING CLEANING!!! throw away 4 pairs of shoes and a couple of clothings.. I have a pile of jeans that is not worn and is given by my aunt.. as she got it for free as they are rejected or samples clothing.. but I jus threw it aside.. any takers can look for me!!! haha.. BRAND NEW and not worn before.. there are brands like GAP and Old Navy.. anyone interested just feel free to look for me.. if not I have no idea what to do with it.. haha.. I jus HATE and LIKE spring cleaning.. once I started I jus want to be speck and clean.. but what makes me irritating is the DUST! as i have a very SENSITIVE nose.. haha.. mum cooked dinner today and dad bought a t-bone steak back to ask mum and cooked.. and guess waht i did..? I actually did a flambe while mum is cooking the steak.. as she marinated with red cooking wine so there is alcohol content.. so my itchy hand jus did a flmabe and BIG FLAME jus came out form the pan! haha.. MUM and grandma got shocked! saying that I wan to burn the hse down! haha.. i was laughing like mad! lolx.. today I jus figured out I got 7 new tops for new year.. but I don have any new bottom.. =(

2008-01-28T22:47:00.000+08:00

let's talk about yesterday.. woke up quite late as what i supposed to be.. haha.. mum cooked porridge so I had it first before meeting genia! SHOPPING AGAIN!!! meet her on the train and we went to novena first as I suggested to go and look for shoes since there are quite a number of shoe shops.. but nothing attracts me until we went to charles and kieth.. she spotted a nice heels which I think is quite nice as well.. so i went to try and it look quite nice.. so i bought the shoe.. who knows..! this woman spot another heels which is red colour and it only cost $18.. is so cheap! end up she bought 1 and a bought 2 colour of the same design.. haha.. after that we went to take a train down to city hall.. and she was kinda of hungry.. so we went to new york new york and I treated her since is a long time since i treat her for a meal.. haha.. i ordered quite a few and we were so full! after our meal we continue walking to digest as we were too full.. haha.. so we went to marina square shop around.. nothing really caught our eyes but we went to buy nail sticker.. haha.. oh ya! is my first time seeing this woman buy cosmetics! haha.. had the urge to cut my hair short.. went to look around and finally thanks to genia i get to cut my hair at chapter 2.. finally I get my hair cut after so long.. after cutting went to the pick up pt to wait for eunice to fetch her home and I got a free ride home as well.. haha.. on our way home outside ritz carlton suddenly I heard something.. and I saw a GREEN LAMBO GALLARDO and a BLACK LAMBO MURCIELAGO come out together.. =D

GENIA!!! everytime shopping with you is so much fun and I really enjoy hanging out with you.. so many topic to chat on and so many juicy gossips.. haha.. never fails to perk me up with your presence though you always bully me.. haha.. and what makes us enjoyable is that almost everything we see we liked the same kind of design or pattern.. GREAT MINDS THINKS ALIKE.. I wan MORE SHOPPING! Loves ya..

2008-01-22T21:38:00.000+08:00

well.. just some thoughts hanging around my mind.. soon really soon I wish that the thoughts will gradually drifted away from me.. no one to tell what i am thinking and I just can express my thoughts over here.. in the first place this post doesn't mean to pin point anyone or any matter.. just that this is from my point of view and how I look at things.. now i started to feel that humans can be very contridicting of what they say.. in the first place they can say good words about you thinking that what you do is of a great help of something pleasent.. but later when things occurred they will start saying that all those things you do is actually kinda of unpleasent. well, i really can't say anything as this is what ppl think and i can't just change their thinking.. or perhaps maybe when a person did something wrong they will change the view of you.. though you might be given another chance.. but if you do not know what ppl think of you, you can't change to a better person.. improve from the past.. well, it doesn't matter much to me anymore.. from now on.. I got to be independent.. no more expectation anymore.. don expect that when you fall ppl will jus pick you up.. got to learn standing up once again by myself.. don also think of people will lending you a helping hand.. i really need to depend on myself.. maybe from now on.. people will just get to see the only side of me.. nothing else.. hoping that i can change after so much obstacles.. I really need time to adjust.. no one but only I can help myself.. from now on.. it will be just me and only me.. and maybe from now, i shall stop initiating on certain things.. though i feel tired but life just got to go on.. so why not be more optimistic..? got to try hard!

2008-01-20T22:33:00.000+08:00

today woke up at about 11.30am.. practically i wasn't doing anything at all.. couch at the sofa watching tv and eating cup noodles.. no one was at home.. nothing to do so I went back to sleep on the sofa till mum came back and just continue sleeping until 4.30pm i woke up and bath.. get prepared thn me and parents went to take a cab down to Sheraton towers for dinner at 李白 to celebrate dad's birthday.. mum invited 2 aunties and my cousin along for dinner as well.. overall the dinner was still ok and wasn't that nice as what i expected.. maybe my expectation for that restaurant is quite high.. oops! after dinner cab home.. just a simple dinner though..

sat 19/01
the stupid nek nek msg me early in the morning.. RAHS!!! disturb my beauty sleep..! but i still went back to sleep since is still early.. woke up ate a bit of breakfast thn went to bath and off i go to town to meet the nek nek.. i know i was quite late.. who knows!!! she get to see a red lambo and best is she get to hear the driver starting the engine.. HUMPFS! I JEALOUS! reach there i walk over to meritius mandarin to look for her.. thn after she parted with justin we went to look for a place to have lunch.. nek nek is so fussy about food! bring her around and then we finally settled down at pasta cafe for lunch.. we ordered pasta and her pasta taste much more nicer than mine.. she don wan to share with me! XD haha.. ok lar.. she give me half a crayfish.. haha.. but she don wan to share the sauce with me.. after lunch we walked to far east and while walking we saw a ORANGE LAMBO GARLLADO parking outside grand hyatt and this is my first time actually saw the driver with the car.. we went to get her organizer.. thn we shopped around.. but who knows.. nothing caught the both of our eyes.. and i just don really have to mood to shop as well.. so what we do is we sit down outside far east sq while waiting for mich.. while waiting we spotted quite a no. of cars.. but so sad that I can't get to see the driver start the engine and VROOM~!!! haha.. I'M JEALOUS OF THE KER NEK NEK! get to see a red lambo and hear the starting of engine.. after mich came we went to MNG to get her stuff and then we went to bakerz inn for our dinner.. I didn't eat much jus only a desert and a pot of earl grey as I was still pretty full.. after that we bid our goodbyes and i walked with mich.. who knows? i saw another ORANGE LAMBO! haha.. thn we walked and I went to take bus home.. today me and nek nek also have our own "SUPER CAR DAY"
our car lists:
7 Lamborghinis
5 Ferraris
4 SLKs ( one more than nek nek!)
1 Aston Martins
3 Audi
couple of RX8

she is eyeing some where~.. haha

2008-01-14T21:30:00.000+08:00

Backed in actions.. Haha.. Just came back from Bangkok on last Friday.. Went there on Tuesday and we get to stayed in Thailand tallest hotel.. And we go a superior room. So good! Went there just to relax and did some shopping.. Overall is not a bad trip as I get to buy quite a no of things and my first time trying thai massage..
My barangs:
3 boxers
1 cardigan
1 cream long sleeves top from zara
1 black top
2 polo shirts

Backed to school today.. Feeling kinda of weird as it has been a month of holidays.. Holidays just ended like that and it was so fast.. And there will be no more break before my 3 months restaurant attachment.. Today is my beloved NEK NEK birthday.. So the few of us were planning last night as we wanted to give her a surprise at her hse. So yesterday after attending cousin’s birthday party I take train down to jurong east to get the ingredients needed for the cake as I was making peach cheesecake for her.. After that I went home and I forget something important.. I forget to buy mcvities digestive biscuits! Luckily downstair that provision shop is selling.. After that start to do the cake and everything ended at about 8pm plus before mum gets home.. Thn went to bath and start to discuss.. today morning woke up at around 8am plus thn we change to meet at 10am cos can’t wake up on time.. After I prepared off I went to take train to harbor front station to meet mich and Justin.. Reach there I called them and luckily mich is reaching as for Justin he jus stepped out of the hse and nic can’t wake up so he couldn’t make it last minute.. So the both of us went to have breakfast at toast box while waiting for Justin.. Reached already we take cab down as we are rushing for time.. When we reach at her doorstep we just light up a few candles and knocked the door.. Her mum opened the door for us and she still don know we came.. Haha.. We bring the cake and when she walked out of the room she kinda of shocked.. Haha.. I think so.. Her expression was so funny.. I asked her: where you think the cake come from..?” she told me from secret recipe.. Thn all of us were laughing like mad.. So I feel happy that it looks like a cake that is bought from outside or weird as she don think that I made the cake for her.. Haha.. Pass her the gift and we asked her to open.. Haha.. Take a few photos and after that her dad fetched us to school.. After school went to wm to had dinner with them.. And thn I went home..

MY NEK NEK.. Happy 19th birthday to you! What I want to say is all written in the letter already.. Hope you had fun and like our surprise for you… nek nek must hug the hello kitty to sleep ok..? Thn see the kitty will reminds of your nek nek.. Haha,. Better treat it well ok?!?!?! Is not easy to bring a cake and such a big present from my hse by train to your hse.. Haha.. Then as for the refund policy.. No refund for cash! But got lifelong warranty.. Guarantee for sure.. Haha.. Lolx.. I can always bring back home.. Once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY NEK NEK!!! Thanks for everything.. LOVE YA! MUACKS!

2008-01-07T02:24:00.000+08:00

GReAT! I SCREWED THINGS UP!! all thanks to me! FU*CKING PISSED with myself now..

2008-01-06T01:48:00.000+08:00

Feel that things has started to change.. It was not the same as before.. these few days can't bring myself to smile and all you see was fake.. maybe..? when working I just keep my mind occupied and just concentrate working but after work it has been to a square again.. many many doubts keep running through my mind.. so many questions that cannot be answered.. from the way back home was practically stoning.. today I have this thinking.. sometimes hurt that you get unintentionally is far more painful than any other hurt.. which I think is quite true.. maybe I have unknowingly got this hurt.. who knows..? haha..

2008-01-03T00:31:00.000+08:00

New Year has jus past..means it is a brand new beginning for me.. few days back on the 31st we went to aloha loyang for jedd's birthday party.. before that meet up wtih genia, joys, shi ,shan and khoon to buy his b'dae pressy at jurong pt.. is been a long time since the few of us gather.. after buying the pressy, took shi car down to the chalet while the rest went to church first.. reach there had some food and chatting.. is been really really a long time since we gather together with lydia, peishan and hui yee.. it really reminds me of the past.. the cell group that we have.. took some photos but is still with joys.. all the kids has grown up and is so adorable.. haha.. after chalet me, genia, shand and khoon take train down to marina sq to look for the rest of the 2n3.. it was very packed and crowded.. we jus squeezed through our ways.. by the time the network was damn busy and we can't contact each other.. so ended up we watch our own fireworks.. after that we waited for the crowd to lessen and meet up with them.. ended up all of us standing in front of marina sq thinking where to go.. and we stand for abt 2hrs and finally decided to go bt timah for prata.. we walked all the way back to funan it mall as the girls are taking max car and who knows we actually walk 1 big round.. FAINTS! my legs is really aching at that time.. haha.. finally hop on to the car and went to prata shop for supper.. is really a great time hanging out with them.. we hang around there for a couple of hours toking craps.. after that max fetch us home and i reach home at abt 5am.. really really had a great time with 2n3..

time and time again.. I only feel disappointment.. maybe I shouldn't have done anything.. why..? why I can't be just optimistic?

2007-12-29T00:05:00.000+08:00

nothing much to blog.. just been busy working.. and finally tml i'll be able to meet up with my dearies.. and maybe new year eve 2n3 will be gathering.. is been a long time since we gather.. kind of looking forward to it..

many things I wanted to say out.. unfortunately there is no one for me to speak.. it has all been kept in my heart..

2007-12-24T13:58:00.000+08:00

23/12 sunday
practically I was couching myself on the sofa for the first half of the day and i went to take a nap before i went to meet my dearies.. woke up was kinda off rush for me and i quickly went to take a bath and off I took bus down to vivo.. khoon was rather fuming mad with the 3 of us as we were late and she decided to go off.. so in the end left me, hoon and grace.. well, we just continue with our outing as normal.. haha.. went to take a look at the time slot of movie and we decided to watch ' The National Treasure Book of Secrets'.. after buying tickets we went to secret recipe for our dinner.. ALL THE CAKES ARE TEMPTING!!! haha.. after dinner went to watch movie and the movie is quite a nice show.. after movie we wanted to go out to take photos but alex called and say that they need to top up their cashcard.. so they meet us first and hoon help them to top up.. it was coincident that we were actually watching the same movie jus now and they were sitting behind us.. haha.. after that the 3 of us went to to take a few pictures.. and suddenly we got the cravings of cakes so we walked back to secret recipe but it was closed already so we went to coffee bean instead.. wanted to have my fav brownies but it was all GONE! haha.. ended up having tiramisu.. we were happily chatting abt the past and those happenings in our class that we had.. from sec 2 all the way to sec 5.. and the 3 of us have been in the same class from sec 1 all the way to sec 5.. we have known each other for about 7 close to 8 years already.. time really flies.. I just miss sec sch life.. having so much fun everyday and lesser problems thn now.. i hope one day the SEVEN will get to meet up again.. as in the WHOLE of the seven.. haha.. enjoy the photos..

in a deep thoughts..

victory is mine!! haha..
oreo eaten by me..
my laogong darling and her oreo

Adoption..? for FREE!
LOVED by US!

22/12 saturday
saturday woke up quite early in the morning as mum and uncle is bringing grandma out for lunch as she has been staying at the aged home for quite a few months.. didn't really had enough slp as the previous night was staying up late.. my entire trip makes me like a walking corpse.. had lunch in a chinese restaurant and the food is quite nice and in a reasonable price.. after lunch they fetch grandma back first and after that uncle came back and send us home.. reaching home I changed and i slp on the sofa.. woke up at about 5.15pm and i went to get ready and out of the hse to jurong stadium of church christmas service.. overall the service is ok but i think it dragged a bit too long.. after service we get to take a few pictures.. oh ya! me and genia get to exchange our presents! haha.. after service me, shan, hoon and khoon went to wm mac for dinner.. after that we went home..

pressy by GENIA!

2007-12-21T22:38:00.000+08:00

been busy working as a cashier at robinson as they are having promotions and discount storewide.. well, can't celebrate christmas and new year as I'm working on that day.. actually when i come to think of it working in robinson isn't that worth and working in office will be much better.. need not to work till late in the nights.. and rushing for the last bus or train.. been running to quite a lot of places to get my christmas shopping done.. I'M OFFICALLY BROKE! haha.. wish to get my pay soon and I can get my own stuff as well.. haha.. if nek nek see this she gonna kill me! haha.. from next week onwards gonna work and shld be quite tiring for me as well.. hope that it will get over soon..

2007-12-17T22:53:00.000+08:00

I guess I have hurt myself deeply.. My heart really feel hurt.. is very painful.. why..?

2007-12-16T00:24:00.000+08:00

These few days many things had came through my mind and I really need a break.. some how it had reach to the point that I gonna break down at any moment.. many many doubts came across to me and i think no one can give me any answers.. not even myself.. and some times i do need some assurance from others but I just can't approach them.. maybe i can just only write down everything instead of telling.. writing loads of rubbish when i'm at the esplanade.. sometimes i just hope that when i lift my head up I can see people that are close to me appear.. but in the end I'll feel more disappointed not in them but in myself.. things just keep pushing down and maybe I'm thinking too much as well..

2007-12-11T21:17:00.000+08:00

I can't say much and there is nothing for me to do as well.. but a decision that I need to make which I don know which one to chose.. I know how mum felt and I chose to keep quiet.. I don wan to say anything to her also but deep inside my heart I know the feeling is very terrible.. I'm actually putting a strong front.. some how I can't really bring myself to smile.. during my way home in the bus I just feel like crying but I keep holding back my tears.. I don wan mum to know.. In fact I don wan anyone to know as I really don wan them to worry.. the decisions lies with me now..

2007-12-10T19:49:00.000+08:00

Today had FSM exam today.. all I can said is I did my best already.. afterall the paper is still quite ok.. today is just not a good day for me afterall.. this gonna be a short post today..

- had my exams now
- raining season
- house area having construction (DRILLING!!!)
- Having headache due to the DRILLING!!!!
- need to study for POC
- got a call early in the morning that just change everything
- I'm not prepared for tomorrow appointment

2007-12-08T00:36:00.000+08:00

Today had my F&B practical progress test.. overall was still ok but just that I think I made quite a few mistake.. after school I went back home to wait for mum to get my things while nek nek, justin, mich, aikho, nic,aloy and isa went to foodcourt to have their lunch first. while walking to westmall I saw khoon and I accompany her to foodcourt to have her lunch.. is been quite some time since i catch up with her.. justin went off first as he is meeting her mum.. so the rest of us went to take train and the rest went their own ways while me, nek nek, aikho and mich went to cityhall.. Finally me and aikho get to eat calamari from chippys and we have been craving for a long time.. haha.. we went to burger king to have a sit as I wanted to get a drink.. we spend abt an hour talking craps and laughing through the way.. after that we decided to go our own ways so mich went to take train while the 3 of us went to take bus.. I took the same bus with them as i wanted to send nek nek home without her knowing.. so i said I'm going to aikho hse and she didn't notice anything.. haha.. when we reaching her stop i followed behind her but she doesn't have a clue that I am behind.. the moment i alight from the bus I wanted to catch up her but who knows.. suddenly I SLIPPED and kneel on the ground.. I was pulling her bag as I don know how to react.. haha.. stood up and quickly walk off the bus stop.. at first there was only a few scratches but who know blood start to ooz out from my kneecap.. I wanted to go home cos it just bleed and nothing serious but the nek nek insisted on dragging me back to her hse.. so I have no choice but to follow her go home.. so the missy ker help me to wash my wounds and I also wash myself.. thn her dad help me to dress my wounds.. feel so pai seh.. after that I went to her room and she took photos of her pathetic nek nek.. and once again, I fell ASLEEP on her bed again.. haha.. woke up we had dinner and thn she send me to downstair to take bus home..

Nek nek.. Don feel bad ok.. I am ok lar.. nothing serious.. like what you said.. your nek nek skin very thick.. haha.. and my nek nek is geting smaller and smaller gas.. a little bit jiu point her sad sad fingers.. and THANKS for your "GOOD" quality service that you provide me at your house.. I now so malu.. your nek nek now patient and then still wan to bully me.. my nek nek now mus take care of me until my wound has recover.. lastly, THANKS for dressing my wounds.. LOVE YA LOTS! MUACKS!

2007-12-05T20:11:00.000+08:00

Had PMS exam today and overall was still ok.. manage to finish on time and complete everything.. went to westmall to have lunch with nek nek, justin, mich and isa.. after lunch i went to get my stuff then proceed to mos burger to get a corn soup for nek nek as she didn't eat much during lunch.. after that I went to take bus home.. prepare to go for a nap and ask nek nek to give me a call at 3.30pm to wake me up.. who knows when I take my nap nightmares happen.. and I have 3 different nightmares.. is really very scary.... first, I dreamt that I had a tiff with nek nek thn I bought her a gift but in return she throw away the gift into the rubbish bin in front of me and walk away.. the was the end of the friendship.. secondly.. I was standing in front of a stall thn suddenly everyone start to walk away from my surrounding and a person came forward telling me that there is a malay spirit hanging around me,, everyone can see except me.. I know nothing and i was very scared.. thn there is this lady saying that she wan to save me and getting rid of that thing.. so I agree without thinking but during the process it was very painful.. really very painful and is like tons and tons of needles poking your back.. until the very last it came off and the pain is excruciating that I fall on the floor and feeling very weak.. and lastly.. I remember I was at a mrt station.. thn suddenly a came a few people saying that i have to follow them but I don wan and i struggled.. they jus couldn't let me off, I wanted to call for help using my hp but they threw it away.. I feeling very helpless.. thn when my phone ring, it was nek nek.. the moment i heard her voice I jus broke down and cried.. I jus couldn't stop crying as i was really feeling afraid.. but I know that she is with justin and I don wan to disturb them further.. So I hang up the phone and just keep crying.. after not long I start to tremble and even though I had my blankets to cover me I am still trembling.. this is the ever first time that I broke down and cried cos of the nightmares.. but is it really too painful and scary.. So much that I wanted a hug from someone or giving me warm but I jus couldn't say out from my mouth.. I keep thinking about the scene.. the most painful is that nek nek actually wan to end our friendship.. I really very scared that it will happen or something that will affect me and her relationship.. I really don wish to see this happen.. and this is my ever first time having such a terrible nightmare.. so many at one go.. it really hurt me.. will you ever end our friendship..? I really don know..

2007-12-04T22:40:00.000+08:00

went to vivo with nek nek, justin and nic after school.. went there as we wanted nek nek to feel better.. jus now i was a total lost.. i told justin.. why don't I react quicker.. why do I always have to wait until things happen then I react.. is partly my fault as well.. I'm sorry.. all along the trip to vivo and till we go home I tried my best to make her smile.. Did I make her smile..? or does she feel more irritated? I really don know.. have I really done my part..? all I know is that I wan to be there for her and give her support.. I promise her that even when she fall I will be there holding her hands and support her.. my heart really aches for her when I see her in that state.. is like something is pulling very hard inside my heart and causing so much discomfort.. have I really tried my best and giving all out to make her happy?

nek nek.. I just wan you to know that I am always here for you when ever you need me.. you have my support even when you fall.. no matter what happens there will always having me around.. fear is your greatest enemy but I believe that 1 day you will be able to conquer it.. No worries.. through this road you have me, justin and bung.. I will walk with you till the day you have overcome.. I was really worried just now and I was scared as well.. but I chose to believe that you will not do anything that hurt yourself.. It really make my heart aches.. I have faith in you cos I know that you are a strong girl.. even if you fall I wan you to stand up bravely and continue walking.. remember what you said to me in all the emails.. Obstacles are tend to be make you stronger and you must break the barrier to lead on to a better life.. I know you will be afraid and I know you will be weak but I hope that you can look on the brighter side of life.. Loves my nek nek LOTS AND LOTS MORE.. remember that I am always standing beside you.. though I might not be someone special to you BUT to me you are special.. I can't explain but is more than an ordinary friends..

2007-12-02T00:25:00.001+08:00

30/11/07

school start at 11am today and I am getting lazier and lazier each day to wake up.. today no training just having revisions for next week progress test.. and we today basically doing napkins folding.. oh ya! my nek nek actually made horlick for me to drink.. not like yesterday.. say wan to make horlick for me then in the end justin get to drink nice horlick as for me i only get horlick WATER! pathetic me! haha.. thn she make a new one again for me today.. sweet and thick enough! haha.. school end at 1pm and it was kind of early.. so I ask nek nek and justin to come over my hse for lunch first as grandma is cooking prawn noodles.. so they had their lunch at my hse together thn we rest for a while disturbing her.. they went off after that so i prepared myself and get ready to meet my beloved GENIA! haha.. we reach there at the same timing so I went to look for her and we walk around as the restaurant opens at 6pm.. when it's about time we walk over there and we take quite a long time to order as genia don know what to eat.. haha.. was chatting away while eating and I told her many many things which i keep inside my heart.. haha.. finally i feel more released.. after saying many things which i can't say to others.. after dinner, we decide to go take photos .. can't imagine that the both of us actually spent $33 on taking neoprints.. haha.. and we also spend there for about an hour.. we went home after that and below is a few photos that we took..

GENIA.. thanks for the treat that I've been yearning for quite sometime.. I really enjoyed myself when ever I am with you.. The person that I can confide everything to.. really thank God that He has let me have you as my best friend.. I believe one day the both of us will go back to Him our beloved Daddy in Heaven.. Though we spend quite amt of money taking photos but I think it's worth is.. haha.. and I like the photos very much.. Thanks genia.. I LOVE GENIA TAN AIK FANG MUCH MUCH AND MANY MORE..

2007-11-28T20:58:00.000+08:00

yesterday night was playing com and watching CSI and it was having advertisement.. the moment i turn my head around i saw something.. it came back to me suddenly, i haven been seeing that for quite some time.. the moment i saw i got this cold feeling in my body and i start to feel scared.. really scared.. off the television and i jus basically stare at the com.. went to rest early as i can't take it but who knows for the entire night i can't sleep well, i can tell that i am not sleeping at all.. some how is like semi conscious.. went to school deadly and i jus can't do anything right.. i was so blur when doing property management system.. get better after the lesson but is jus that i keep thinking abt scene that i saw.. i am scared i am cold.. why..? anyway, THANKS NEK NEK for helping me to copy my principal of cooking notes.. MUACKS! I will give you something in return.. haha.. went to westmall to get some stuff and jus don feel like ging home.. went to walk around and then walk home though it was drizzling.. if it was a much heavier rain maybe it will be better.. going crazy soon!

2007-11-25T22:06:00.000+08:00

24/11
yesterday woke up by nek nek msg.. everytime sleeping sure woke up by her msg! STUPID NEK NEK!! thn follow mum to westmall to have brunch with her at mos burger and thn off she goes to visit grandma and staying overnight at uncle hse as she is going to m'sia the next day th grandma went over to my uncle hse stay oso.. so I went back home nuahing and wait for time to pass by.. almost fall asleep at 3.30pm thn the nek nek msg me say she finishing her driving lesson.. FAINTS! don need to sleep already, so i went to bath and prepare.. i was loss and don know wat to wear and i tried about 3 outfits.. when i was ready off i went to meet the nek nek thn we take bus down to meet justin and nic at orchard.. my nek nek was HIGH cos there is a YELLOW LAMBO GALLARDO parking in front of meritius mandarin.. so the moment we alight from the bus stop we quickly make our way there.. and there is it is~!!
thn the four of us were sitting in front of the car and not wanting to move.. we sit there for a few hours jus to wait for the driver to come and on the engine.. who knows suddenly, nic kanna bird shit on his red shirt.. haha.. poor him! thn someone complaining hungry already so we decided to go vi'lage for dinner.. my MOUNTAIN TORTOISE NEK NEK first time going there.. so being a good person i bring her around the place and recommend her nice food.. haha.. I AM SO GOOD! haha.. after dinner we went back to look for the lambo.. but too bad it was not there anymore so was kind of disappointing especially nek nek.. so we went to taka again to bring nek nek see hello kitty.. and thn we walk along orchard, when reaching OG suddenly we saw LAMOB AGAIN! thn we actually chase after the lambo.. haha.. after that we walk walk thn find a place to sit down to rest and talk crap cos we were kinda of perspiring.. after that decided to walk to plaza sing. and go home from there.. so while waiting for nek nek's bus at the bus stop we heard something from far.. SUDDENLY, another LAMBO drove pass it was a YELLOW MURCIELAGO.. FAINTS! haha.. thn bus come already so i hop on the bus together with nek nek as I am sending this KU KU nek nek home.. while the bungs take train home.. anyway I got nothing to do and hardly I can go home late w/o any government at home so a KIND SOUL like me send my beloved nek nek home.. accompany her walking to the lift thn hug hug thn we bid goodbye and I took cab home as I was kinda of shagged as I work previous night..

25/11
woke up at about 1.50pm since no one at home disturbing me.. haha.. thn doing nothing but jus staring in front of the television and thinking jus to have dinner for today as i was kinda of lazy to eat lunch.. thn about 3pm plus I received a msg from aikho asking wanna go have dinner together.. so i agreed and meet her at batok mrt station as in OUTSIDE of the station not inside.. but BLUR AIKHO she went inside to wait for me.. haha.. so she came out from the station and we took a bus down to holland village for our dinner at pho hua.. can't imagaine that the both of us eat dinner which cost $45 and is kinda of expensive.. and I oso need to save money to buy some stuff for christmas.. haha.. after dinner we walk around holland village thn we took a bus home.. reach home thn rest lor.. that's all for today..

2007-11-22T22:21:00.000+08:00

I can blame no one.. I can't blame the person i really treasure.. all I can say is I am pissed with myself.. I am really angry with myself.. I am already at the verge of breaking down.. so much things wanted to say out, but I have to think of the consequences.. I really don wan to hurt anyone especially the one that i really love.. all i can say to her is to take care even when things is different.. am I really thinking too much...? am I really being selfish.? I don know.. I just wan you to know that I am always be here for you when you needed me.. LOVE YA!

2007-11-21T20:25:00.001+08:00

I thought everything could be the same as before but who knows it has change since last weekends.. it has pushed me down to the other side.. maybe it will no longer be the same as before.. doubts start to form in my mind, many many doubts.. I don know how to do and i don wish things to be worse.. all i can do is to keep to myself what ever i know, be it anger or be it sadness.. only me to swallow everything i recently know.. it really hurts but i do what i think is right.. I don't care what other ppl trying to say, as long I am conscience about things I do is already more than enough.. but until now, I start to doubt myself.. have i really tried enough or have i getting tired.. sometimes i just feel such a failure, doing nothing at all.. I really wish tat things will be the same as before.. will it be..? How I wish it can be hidden forever, no one but only me to know.. the pain is really there but I can do nothing.. I chose to let everything fall on me, I don wan to hurt others especially the one i treasure a lot.. reach home, everything was very bad.. I can't bring myself to smile.. Not at all.. and after discussing with mum about my case, i came to a decision.. and I will go forward with my decision.. I'm really scared.. Why these kind of things have to happen on me..? I know mum is worried and her heart aches for me.. I wish to get it as soon as possible and I don wish to delay anymore.. I only told 2 person about my condition.. I just wish everything will be over soon.. But I fear.. fearing that it will not come out the way as i wan or it could never be done.. I am really scared..

2007-11-18T21:42:00.000+08:00

18/11
my nek nek wake me up at about 8.30am today but i went back to sleep after she called me cos bao bei is fetching me to expo so i need not to wake up so early and prepare.. woke up had my breakfast and then something which effected me in the morning my my parents.. but forget it, i jus don really wan to bother about it.. went down to meet her after she called, xiao qing is so cute but she seems to be afraid of strangers.. haha.. reach already went to look for nek nek and the rest and who knows it started a 1pm so we decided to go look for food inside the food fair.. we actually stayed there throughout the whole event and i was pretty tired ads i had a little of sleep the previous night.. after the event finished the whole group of us went to take mrt and we had greasy smell! YUCKS! haha.. luckily bao bei got perfume to lend me.. alight at tanah merah and i took a cab down to grandma hse as they are celebrating grandma b'dae before she was being sent to the aged home tml.. though there wasn't any food left but i still manage to chat with mt cousin.. but too bad my alvan is asleep so i cannot play with him.. after that mum, grandma and me went to the market for dinner and i have my BAK CHOR MEE~!!! I ate $3 of BAK CHOR MEE as i was hungry! IS MY NEK NEK JEALOUS..? haha.. can we go there again SOON? after dinner cab home and i sleep in the cab..

17/11
woke up quite early in the morning and went to have breakfast with mum at westmall and off we go to aljunied get get my stuff done.. was very sleepy through the journey as it takes abt 1hr+ to reach the place.. we have to take train and then bus.. reach there was quite tensed and many questions came into my mind.. after everything has done, it actually has dampen my mood.. I couldn't bring to smile anymore.. had lunch at bedok with mum and then we went our separate ways, i went to my nek nek hse while she went to visit granny.. through the whole journey i was jus stoning and msging nek nek.. drop off at redhill and went to mr bean to get food for her and also myself, after that went to take a bus to her hse.. reach her hse i was just lazing at her hse and who knows i actually fell alseep on the sofa while watching tv.. and again I FELL ASLEEP AT YUR HOUSE YOU THIS NEK NEK!!! she woke me up not long as her mum is coming back so i proceed to her room but i can't sleep anymore.. was disturbing her and she just torture me again.. waiting for her to bath and then off we go to orchard paragon to had dinner at fish & co. and we ordered seafood platter as we both have cravings for it.. After dinner wanted to bring nek nek to hello kitty shop, while waiting at the traffic light a LAMBO drove pass.. and OMG my nek nek lose control.. haha.. we still wet to hello kitty shop but her heart wasn't there.. so no choice but to follow her go walk walk and look for lambo lor.. who knows don have lehx so i bring her go walk around some hotel to try our luck.. so a KIND SOUL LIKE ME decided to bring her for a walk along orchard road and then walk into shangri la hotel.. is quite a long walk as we started to walk from hereen.. cos my nek nek is such a MOUNTAIN TORTISE AS SHE HAD NEVER BEEN TO ANY HOTEL BEFORE.. she is going to kill me.. =x who knows when we walk to shangri la there is no lambo... awwws~!! sorry nek nek! thn she so small gas.. she angry with me (play play only).. haha.. thn we walk back to hereen to look for bao bei.. acc nek nek to wait for her bus first thn after that me and bao bei went to balcony for a drink.. i had STRAWBERRY MAGARITA.. so nice~!! i like.. haha.. thn while drinking we been chatting a lot and many stuff lor.. after that abt 12am+ i took night rider home and then zzzzzzzz..

2007-11-17T00:17:00.000+08:00

what I really want now is to hibernate myself at home for a period of time.. things is making me tired but what can I do..? i really feel like coping myself now at home just to rest and doing nothing with the outside things that happening.. dad is going to the hospital next week and it reminded me when i got the letter from the hospital in the letter box.. time just past by so fast.. and what have i done..? no idea.. this has been a quite tiring week for me and mum tell me her problem as well, problems start to rise up in mum's family.. then dad maybe going back to china to work after the project here has completed.. then mum wanted to follow and she tell me those stupid stuff again.. it makes me think back of the past when i am a child.. for months there is no peace in the family, when i come to think of it it just hurt my heart.. guess the scene will never goes away and it will stay in my mind forever.. just feel like taking a break in this weekends but i guess it can't be done..

2007-11-13T21:43:00.000+08:00

finally everything is back to normal though i am still worry for dad.. at least there is something that makes me smile.. at last i still went back to look for her.. staying at the bus stop there doing nothing but just crying and msging her.. but i don know why in the end i still walk back to her hse and look for her.. i really got to admit that i can't lose her at all.. when i saw her at the doorstep.. we just hugged each other, crying and apologize.. after all, we settled already.. and i never regretted going back to look for her.. after we are done, time to PLAY!!! haha.. but before that i actually fall asleep on her bed.. too tired and my eyes are closing.. after waking up, she very the KU KU NEK NEK!! she wrestle me and lying flat on my body.. thn we play wrestling on her bed.. haha.. in the end i am the one losing out to her, she keep torturing me.. so i decided to steal her guin guin.. haha.. she is so selfish as she don wan to share her guin guin with me.. haha.. after playing we had our dinner and off we go to her room again and for me, i DOZE OFF on her bed again.. how come i keep dozing off on her bed..? NEK NEK.. if you ever see this!! I THINK SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH YOUR BED! haha.. woke up at abt 8pm and round 2! TING TING TING!!! haha.. we chat we played we watch tv till 10pm thn i decided to go home.. and suddenly don know why, being a kind soul she actually send me down to take bus.. haha.. before i left to take bus, we HUGGED and we KISS! this shows we love each other so much!

finally it has come to an end.. and i hope after this our friendship will get stronger.. i promise you that you will never ever lose me and i will never ever abandon you.. cos i really treasure you like you treasure me.. and don you ever think of getting out from my life! you are stuck with me forever!! I LOVE YOU!! MY NEK NEK.. MUACKS!

2007-11-08T00:47:00.000+08:00

things hasn't been good for me since the past few days.. on tues dad going to the hospital with mum for his check up.. as for me, mum ask me to go sch don skip lesson so i no choice but to go sch.. I tot i will be fine and being strong in front.. but until i msg mum ask ask her abt dad's condition.. i start to break down.. i really worry for dad and i just cried out.. I tot everything will be fine after seeing mum's msg.. but who knows.. when we were at horizon waiting or the seminar mum msg me and saying that dad has bubbles in his liver.. I WAS LOST! I DON KNOW HOW TO REACT! tears just keep flowing down from my eyes.. thn nek nek bring me out of the classroom and pulled me to the corridor.. i jus cried in her arms.. i don know why but i jus can't stop.. should i say i ache for my dad or i'm jus thinking too much and worry for me dad.. he need to go back to the hospital for further check up by doing ultra sound.. all we can do know is to wait and see what is the result.. and I can do now is to accompany him and remind him to cut down smoking.. I have to be strong! I keep telling myself i have to BE STRONG and i MUST!! I will and wants to hang on but how long can i do that.. I jus hope that everything will be fine and over soon.. I couldn't get myself to sleep that night.. Is really very tough and i manage to sleep at 6am+ which i even know that granny has woke up.. I HAVE TO BE STRONG!!! and I MUST BE STRONG..

today went to sch as per normal.. but for the earlier part i was feeling very tired and restless.. I just feel tired.. wanted to slp but some how i don wan.. cos i wan to be there for nek nek and i really did.. during demo i hardly can hang on but i tried to.. and i oso being trying hard to make her smile.. i hope she can feel it.. after sch don feel like going home, so I decided to accompany nek nek to go home while the rest went to baobei hse for mj session.. but is ok.. my nek nek come first! we parted at je station thn me, neknek, justin, nic and kelvin take the same line.. me, neknek and justin drop off at outram and we bring the day wei to SGH as he don know how to go.. so the kind soul of me bring him go.. haha.. after we bring him to SGH we went to the pasar malam nearby as the both of us got cravings for muah chee~!! so we bought our food and sit down to eat.. the both of us pattern is back! SAME FOOD CRAVINGS AND SAME THINKING AT THE SAME TIME! haha.. after that we went to take bus to bt merah cos she wants to eat pizza hut which is her very very long cravings.. after ordering we look for a seat and sit down.. and the stupid nek nek.. ask me how much she owe me $$$ thn i kind enough to tell her how much and help me to save as well.. but who knows the crazy me as her to help me save money.. thn she very "KIND" enough to control my finance.. and very "KIND" enough to keep my atm cards.. and to hand her part of my allowance every month for her to help me save up.. after much persuasion she decided to return me my debit card.. the one and only for the next few months.. after she confiscate my cards i keep grumbling at her and nag and nag at her.. haha.. she is so HARSH!!!! reach her house ask her to go bath fast fast thn we had pizza hut for our dinner.. she lied to me! she said got COKE but don have.. huhuhu.. after dinner, we went to her room and watch tv play play.. she stupid and SMALL GAS! don wan to share her blanky with me.. haha.. lying on her bed while watching tv thn she keep ka ciao me don let me fall asleep.. pinch me again and draw away the blanket.. SHE JUST DON LET ME SLEEP!!! thn i just nuah at her bed lor.. haha.. decided to left at 11.15pm and off i go back home..

2007-10-31T23:00:00.000+08:00

why for this past few days it wasn't smooth for me.. why suddenly so many things is happening.. for once today i really back to my normal self but until principles of cooking the scene of my nightmare came back.. the same scene keep flashing back and i feel very uncomfortable with it.. nek nek feel something is wrong with me immediately.. thanks for being there and understand me.. went home after sch i tot i will be ok after taking a nap.. but who knows.. i got woke up by mum's call on the phone with dad.. and i heard something that shock me.. after mum hang up the phone she told me everything.. dad got a letter from the hospital but he chose to keep to himself without telling us until mum saw the letter.. mum decided to make a call just now regarding dad's issue.. and come to know that the dept is concerning kidney, livers and surgery.. while mum was telling me she just teared.. all i could do is to console her i told myself not now..! you are not suppose to cry oso.. i tried to control myself and i did.. but after that i ran to the toilet and let everything out.. my heart really very very pain.. it was not myself the whole night.. i keep telling myself not to cry.. dad's appt is next tues and mum going to accompany hm to the hospital.. i really wish that nothing is wrong with dad.. how will i gonna get on going for these few days till tues.. i wish i got the courage to tell dad how i really care for him but i jus can't.. i keep telling myself everything will be fine nothing will goes wrong.. but what if i am really wrong..? what if everything is not the way i want... please don let it happen!!!

2007-10-29T20:30:00.000+08:00

26/10 friday
have the first F&B practical.. and all i can say is STRESS!!! feel very lost and don really know how to operate well also.. after school, nek nek came to my hes cos she wants to bake cookies and a cake for day wei as she celebrating his b'dae for him on sat.. so we were doing till quite some time and the day wei call me so we have to lied to him saying that I am at nek nek hse.. after doing everything it was about 9pm.. so i send nek nek home to the doorstep first as i don feel safe for her to go home alone after sending her home i went to take train down to serangoon cos staying overnight at day wei hse with the rest.. to celebrate his b'dae in advance.. reach there was damn hungry so i ask them to help me cook the food.. but who knows they left very little food only.. haha.. after helping to clear up at the rooftop, we went to the basement watching eurotrip and the few of us (me, ron, jonathan, aikho and wenting) decided to play mahjong.. they tkae turn to play except me and baobei stuck on our sit playing.. once we start we played for more than 7hours till the next morning.. while the rest playing playstation.. we stop at abt 6.30am the following day then all of us were looking at chris a and we were laughing all the way for 20mins becos of his stupid single act that he did.. after that me baobei and aikho share cab home..

27/10
reach home went to bath and dry up my hair.. after that i knock out and sleep all the way till 5pm until genia call me.. thn shan msg me saying we met about 9pm at westmall with the rest to celebrate hoon b'dae.. after woke up slack for a whle and went to bath and out to jp with my family for dinner at crystal jade.. after dinner, we went shopping and i bought 1 top and 1 black dress from esprit, dad paid for it.. so why not.. haha. thn we head to john little as they having sales and i bought my adidas perfume and other stuff.. and off i go to westmall to meet the seven.. everyone was there except grace as she has to work.. awwws.. is not the complete seven.. but neva mind, we help her to celeb hoon b'dae also.. we went to watch a movie "ferryman" the movies is till ok but quite a thriller and shan couldn't take it cos she don dare to watch.. haha.. after movie we went to seat down at the kaya toast shop and celeb hoon b'dae.. after cutting cake we get to talk a lot from the past in sec school life till the future.. and we promised each other we will continue to celeb our b'dae down the 50yrs.. i really LOVES THE SEVEN!!! LOVES YA ALL SO MUCH!!! all of you brought colours to my life.. after that we start to take pictures.. haha.. and then we went home..

28/10 sunday
i shall not talk much on this day.. is jus not a good day afterall.. but i manage to did some shooping again.. i bought 1 black pants and 1 knitwear from dorothy perkins.. anyway, thanks to nek nek and jstin.. thanks for hearing me out.. nek nek i really feel grateful having you around me.. sorry to trouble you so much and i know wat you do is wei wo hao.. but i just can't do that.. sorry nek nek cause you to worry so much..

29/10 monday
today had principals of cooking and we doing chicken rice and beef consomme today.. i felt so tired today due to my lack of sleep the previous night.. after lesson i went straight home cos i don feel right at all.. went to bath straight awayand i fall asleep BUT the construction going on and is very noisy so i woke up and had the chicken rice for lunch.. i really feel very very tired in physically and mentally.. i went to my mum room and listening to ipod.. tears jus keep flowing out from my eyes and i jus cried myself to sleep.. in the evening, nek nek and bao bei called to wake me up cos the bung and sisters are going to give day wei a surprise.. i lazy to tell the process but overall it was a success! anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTIN LIEW DAY WEI!!! we went to mac to cut the cake and slack thn pass him the present.. we bought hime a lambo dabio model for him and ask him to fix himself.. after that we decided to go home so i left first i can no longer take it, i scared i might breakdown anytime.. that's all for now..

THE STUPID GENIA ASK ME TO PUT DOWN HER NAME AND THERE IT IS! THE GENIA THAT ALWAYS BULLY ME DE BUT I STILL LOVE HER THE MOST!!!!

2007-10-25T20:41:00.000+08:00

today i woke up late at about 9am until justin msg me.. GOSH! I snooze for 1 hour.. when i saw his msg i jump out of the bed and quickly prepared to go to school to wait for the nek nek to come, but who knows she reach earlier than me.. It wasn't a good night for me yesterday.. is been a long time since I have nightmares.. the nightmare was very scary.. I know that I am having nightmares and I so much wanted to wake up.. I struggled in my dreams but I just couldn't wake up, i can feel that tears actually roll down to my face at that moment.. I tried but i just can't! the scene keep appearing in my mind and thoughts is running wild.. when baobei saw me at the locker area she can sense i feel very shagged so I told her.. when i am telling her i so much wanted to cry out but I just bear with it.. cos i don wan to spoil the day since is the starting of day and nek nek came back to school.. I so much wanted to let it out but I just control.. I thought that i would be fine till end of school but the scene keep flashing back.. I feel so tired in school and almost feeling asleep.. when i reached home, it got worse.. I'm all alone.. The fear in my heart, was thinking what if something bad is really going to happen... what will I do and what will happen.. the scene just keep coming back.. how i wish that it was not there at all.. but I can't control it.. when will the scene goes away..? i really have no ideas, i am so helpless now......

2007-10-22T22:39:00.000+08:00

today i really don wish to get out of my bed.. as i don't really sleep well due to the previous night is really torturing for me to sleep.. so i have to wait till 2am then I finally able to sleep.. but I just could not resist the temptation but end up i making myself miserable.. haha.. forget it! is over! today in the kitchen get to cook cream of mushroom soup, curry chicken and chilled melon soup.. overall the food that i cooked still not too bad lar.. but maybe the mushroom soup is a little bit salty.. haha.. basically after school i went home and bath after that off to my NEK NEK HSE!!!!!!!!! HERE I COME!!!!!!! haha.. was memorizing the cocktails in the bus thn i cannot tahan already so i knock out in the bus.. haha.. but who knows for the firs time i actually MISS my bus stop! haha.. luckily by the time i wake up i drop off the next bus stop is quite near her hse.. PHEWS! reach her hse i help her to heat up the curry chicken and the pilaf rice.. but who knows, the stupid nek nek don like the rice.. haha.. so we share the 3 pathetic piece of chicken and I ate the rice.. was playing and fooling around with her.. haha.. I jus really hope to see her SMILE AND HAPPY! but in the end.. she bullied me by using her crutches to poke my injured feet! HUMPFS! after eating we went to her room and watch tv, while watching tv we were busy disurbing each other.. I was lying down on her bed.. and who knows after a while i actually fall asleep! about 5pm i was half woken but my eyes jus couldn't open so no choice but to back to my lalala land.. haha.. woke up at abt 6pm thn i msg the nek nek cos i don dsare to goout of her room as her papa outside, i so pai seh.. haha.. thn we were outside watching tv and crapping lor.. surprisngly, the nek nek actually offer her help to help me change blogskin when i didn't even say anything.. haha.. THANKS NEK NEK!! thn have dinner at her hse after that she have to go see a chinese physician which appears to be her papa cousin in law or what so ever.. haha.. so i decided to go off as well thn i help her down to wait for her dad to drive to her hse downstair.. then i went to take bus home and busy memorizing the cocktails.. that's all for now.. LASTLY, a stupid mistake tat the TOOT NEK NEK DID.. she actually msg me mistakenly telling to "buy dinner also for jaslin".. actually she wans to msg her dad.. haha.. WHAT A STUPID YET FUNNY MISTAKE!

2007-10-18T00:24:00.000+08:00

didn't been updating due to some reasons.. been going to the hospital for the whole week.. cos my beloved nek nek admitted to the hospital.. CRIES~!!! on monday after having cooking lesson we were abt to go out of sch.. it was raining then.. so the stairs is quite slippery.. i was at the back of gerrx and mich.. left a few steps of stairs only but suddenly my nek nek slipped! i was stunt at that moment and i quickly ran down to attend to her.. i was afraid i was worried.. the impact on her back is so big and she was feeling semi conscious.. i really feel very lost.. all i do is trying to keep her wake.. ambulance came and send to NUH so we rush down by cab.. tears start to form in my eyes and i just couldn't help it.. reach the NUH A&E we waited for abt at least 8hrs.. finally thn she got admitted to a ward.. after the lesson the rest of the sis and bung came down.. my heart really aches for her.. is very pain in my heart! but luckily the injury is not that serious.. jus tat her left leg was injured too and she couldn't move.. the first day look very terrible.. went down to visit her for 3 consecutive days.. is all worth it! today she can walk after her physio.. i was really glad to hear that! but at the same time was feeling kinda of tired too as i been reaching home 11pm for these few days.. finally my nek nek is able to discharge tml.. YEAHS!!! hope she will recover soon! LIFE IS MISERABLE WITHOUT YOU IN SCHOOL EVERYDAY! PLEASE COME BACK SOON! I AM USED TO HAVING NEK NEK ON MY LEFT SIDE IN CLASS! IF YOU EVER SEE THIS, DON KEEP ME WAITING! LOVES YOU SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!

2007-10-14T00:38:00.000+08:00

today i woke up at around 1.10om.. and the moment i woke up.. OUCH!!! both my legs and arms muscles are aching!!! cos i piggy back the nek nek at east coast as she was having leg cramps thn i have to piggy back her quite a distance.. this is my first time piggy backing a person and walk so far.. so nek nek you beeter treat me good! you own me once! haha.. so i decided to msg her and surprisingly she jus woke up.. so i ask her is she packing her room today and she said yes.. so i ask does she need help in packing and she said yes again.. so afer my lunch and bathing, off i go to her hse.. reach her hse i wan to FAINTS! so many stuff lying on the floor.. so i help her to pack and throw away quite a lot of stuff.. don know why she wan to keep so many things that are useless.. haha.. she can be KARANG KUNI already.. so many rubbish to throw.. will really vomit blood when packing her stuff.. and thn oso help her to file her notes.. thn her mum and her call me maria especially he nek nek.. ask me do these and do that.. after packing her parents ask me to go dinner with them.. at first i don really wish to go cos will feel kind of arkward but in the end i still go with them.. on our way to bt timah for dinner suddenly VROOM! a LAMBO pass by.. haha.. we went to a peranakan restaurant for dinner. my first time there.. the food is nice and the price is reasonable.. i think i will go back there again.. but we waited for some time for the food to come cos the place is damn crowded..

quite like her family.. cos is very diff frm mine.. or can say i far too different. it will never ever happen to my family.. never.. today something pissed me off before i left the hse.. everytime thngs repeat itself again i feel like confronting you yet i chose to remain silent cos i don wan things to get worse.. but time and time again you did this to me again.. why mus you always do things behind my back which irritates me.. why do you have to know everything abt what is happening to me and even my friends.. why do you always have to intrude my privacy and my life.. can't you jus give me space to breathe and a little freedom.. i feel my heart is so heavy everytime this things happen.. i know you might be reading this but i still have to write out everything i feel for me to vent out.. i think 'TRUST' this word has never came into your heart.. i feel that you can never learn to trust me or dad.. you also never learn to trust and respect my life and privacy.. why do you always control me and being so demanding.. i am already a grown up teen and i know what to do and what not to do. but you chose the hard way.. if there is really 1 day i can no longer take it, i scared i will be regret of what i will do maybe you will even regret more.. i made a promise to myself.. from now on, you will never get to know what is happening to me.. i make sure you will not have the chance to find out anything.. nothing at all.. is all because of the ways you handle my matters.. you made me do this.. things will never be the same again.

2007-10-10T22:19:00.000+08:00

today almost late for sch.. class starts at 9.15am but i woke up at 8.30am.. got to rush and went to the provision shop to buy vitasoy and nek nek's stuff.. when reach the computer lab i was totally worn out.. really very tired.. didn't get to slp enough to previous night as i was busy doing some stuff, i only get to slp at 2.30am.. neva mind.. the moment i woke up and get ready for sch.. quarrel with my mum before i leave the house.. i am so pissed! till i slam the door damn hard.. so F*CKED UP! not long in computer lab i was not feeling quite well so all i can say is everything is not right! tears start to appear in my eyes but i still bear with it.. at least i did not teared! everything i do i jus feel so tired so restless about it.. the pace is so fast and hard for me to catch up.. i really wish to have a long break for myself... nothing but rest! all i wan to focus now is to see my nek nek recover.. i don mind spending late nights brewing drinks for you.. i don mind going to your hse to cook dinner for you.. all i wan is you to be alright and stay happy! being trying very hard to make you happy.. though sometime i feel tired abt it but i still wan to persevere on.. all i wan is her to be once healthy and a cheerful gal again.. that's all folks!

2007-10-04T10:51:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK.. haha.. miss sch the first day.. and SHIT! kitchen practical.. learning different kind of cuts.. but i am not there so 10 marks deducted for me.. kinda of disappointed but no choice.. need to go aikho hse to learn how to cut and the names of the cut.. if not later exam i die! haha.. a brand new timetable for this semster.. basically is emphasizing on F&B.. shld be quite interested in it but maybe not all.. and all the timing sucks.. many days i will be ending late in sch.. the worst is 8pm.. how am i gonna survive you this semester.. WHEN CAN I MEET MY GENIA???? haha.. I MISS YOU! still say i am bad.. photos i taken in korea maybe sometime later than i upload.. yesterday in demo kitchen i learn how to make a couple kinds of stocks and sauce.. haha.. hopefully i can really know how to cook them.. is not easy and takes quite a lot of time.. i think that shall be it! :)

2007-09-24T01:21:00.000+08:00

this post is specially dedicated for my NEK NEK!!!

my beloved nek nek.. after reading the short msg in your blog that you wrote for me.. tears just started to flow out.. I am really very touched.. all the words that you type out i really can feel your love and care for me.. i don really have the habit of sharing probs to anyone.. very seldom except the very very very close ones to me.. yet i chose to share with you which means you really mean a lot to me.. really a lot..

actually.. you are the first one that lending me your shoulders and let me really vent it all out from my heart.. this is my first time feeling so warm.. no one has ever done this to me.. i really get to feel what true friends really are.. i rarely show my feelings to anyone or you can say no one.. but you chose to stay by my side and lend my your shoulders and comfort me.. while walking alone just now i really feel very helpless.. until you came i am able to let it all out completely..

is not i don wan to share my problems with you.. you oso have been facing many setback and i don really wish to add on to your burden. as i promise you.. no matter what i am always there for you.. you are not a failure at all.. you are my best friend.. no failure.. my nek nek is oso a very strong girl! really thanks for being there for me today! i really really feel much better.. though there will always be a deep scar in my heart..

as what i said to you.. i might not be your closest ones but i will always be the one standing there along with you when ever you need me.. sometimes i really feel so useless.. seeing you in a great hurt yet i can do nothing or give you anything.. but i really wish that i am the person you will think of when you are in pain.. a person for you to know that she will always be there for you.. no matter what.. from going to your hse to send mac breakfast to you to writing letters and emails to you.. i will try ways to make you smile again.. i really love my nek nek! the nek nek that always draw on my books, always poke me and always have the same cravings for food! I REALLY LOVE GERADINE KER!! thanks for being there for me..

and this is my nek nek:

lastly.. nek nek.. i really hope this friendship of ours will never end.. the road which have no ending.. a path which we can always hang out together and enjoy ourselves and always having the same cravings for the same food.. all the things that i've said to you before i hope you will neva forget.. the story between nek nek and ning ning will continue on...

2007-09-23T00:16:00.000+08:00

today is mummy's b'dae.. after i woke up jus slacking in front of the tv till 5+pm thn went to bath and prepare to go out for dinner while waiting for dad to come home.. we going to lawry's prime rib restaurant for dinner.. mum made a reservation at 7.30pm so we decided to take a bus down instead of cab since is early.. haha.. all of us ordered the set meal dinner.. overall the food is really very very nice.. frm the steak to the desert.. haha.. i love the buttered sweet corn the most! is so sweet and yummy! haha.. and the chrysanthemum creme brulee.. but when the bill came.. faints! 4oo+bucks for 4 people.. but mum entitled to a free main course meal.. so that saves us up to about 360+ bucks.. everything went well but when billing things started to change drastically.. i just chose to keep quiet and ignore the whole incident.. but deep in my heart i feel like saying out loud.. saying all my feelings.. why does this kind of things always happen..? few photos to enjoy..

exams finally over.. overall i only can say i tried my best.. yesterday after paper went back home to take a nap.. was waiting for nek nek call.. wondering how come so long no one call me.. so i decided to call her.. ppl busy dating.. still don wan to go home.. stupid! wait until around 6pm thn i go bath and prepare.. left the hse at 7pm.. see lar!!! waited so long for her.. end up the rest couldn't make it.. so left the both of us only.. when to take train thn alight at redhill cos the nek nek missed her bus! walk so slow.. she slow pok! haha.. after she came we take train to bedok lor.. finally after sometime.. we reach there at abt 8.15pm le.. i went to bring her to buy some stuff thn we take bus to the hawker center lor.. finally after travelling for so long.. we reach bedok north 85 fengshan market.. haha.. thn we look for seats and i went to order bak chor mee, satay and bbq stingray.. my nek nek looooooooooooooooongs cravings for her bak chor mee... haha.. she feel so satisfied after eating.. oh ya! she can't bear to finish eating her last meatballs.. haha.. she so funny.. such a gluttony! she eat her dinner before coming to meet me.. but she still can eat so many food.. haha.. after eating we take bus and change train back home lor.. the stupid nek nek!!! keep poking my stomach.. for what you tell me...?

the stupid nek nek can't bear to finish her meatball!

when can you ever learn how to trust people..? especially your loves one.. jus stop being so suspicious abt the little things we do or changes.. in the end is you are the one that hurting yourself.. sometimes it really really very tough on me.. no one to share this heavy burden with me.. is all on my own shoulder.. i really don know when will it come to an end.. why do you have to make things worse..? if it's me i really feel contented.. what exactly you wan us to do..? can't you give me and dad a space to breath.. a little freedom.. can you stop being so demanding.. I HAD ENOUGH!!!! is really enough for me.. i hardly able to carry on..

2007-09-15T23:49:00.000+08:00

what have i been doing for the past few days..? BUSY STUDYING!! haha.. busying studying at the esplanade library with aikho and gerrx.. is quite a good environment to study.. and we take quite a lot of photos.. haha.. went to the rooftop after studying to relax and thn went to makansutra for dinner.. that's it for thursday.. fri was waiting for aikho to come as she's going sch to hand in the oroj so i accompanied her oso.. mr pang is so funny! haha.. after that we take bus to esplanade to look for nek nek and justin lor.. they reached there quite sometime already.. haha.. was busying copy notes and study FOO.. my mind is in a whirl!!!! yesterday feeling wasn't quite good.. haha.. after studying we went to marina square for dinner and we wanted to go see if there's any lambo.. but too bad.. no luck for that night.. gerrx was waitimg for her dad to come ftch her at suntec so i decided to go off first.. after i left, tears just flow out from my eyes non stop.. couldn't help crying.. haix.. what is wrong with me..? i think been putting quite a lot of stress on myself and don feel quite well been running to the "comfort room" lots of time and problems rising in my family.. feeling so weak.. so stress!!!!! jus hope exams faster finish so i can take a break.. taking bus home alone and i saw LAMBO..! haha.. only i get to see that night.. i need to get back studying already.. the pics will tell the rest of the story.. enjoy.. :)

no one accompanied me this lonely night.. wahaha! as if..

for what you tell me..?

stupid aikho..! i am having toe CRAMPS!

K.O.. after studying for few hours.. SICK!!

SEE! we are so hardworking..! haha

LOVE her the MOST!!!

all thanks to me! if not no 100 plus for you.. still make fun of me!

auntie nek nek.. her sitting position very "elegant"

2007-09-06T21:16:00.000+08:00

many things happen for the past few days.. meet up with my best buds last fri nite to chill at coffee bean.. it's been a long time since we hang out like this to chat and having lots of laughter.. haha.. projects has been piling up and suffocates me.. this entire week has been feeling very tired.. maybe cos of the projects and the upcoming exams.. it is so hectic.. all i jus wan is to have a long break to have myself release from stress! haha.. been dozing off in class which i can't afford to.. and i actually sleep through the entire lesson for FOM!!! which is a big NO NO!!! haha.. mon me and the sisters went to bugis to look for vee's pressy.. and we decided to buy undergarments for her.. haha.. is so cute! thn for these past few days been doing projects lor.. got suck in hotel security.. haha.. we went to watch movie today after hotel law as we have 4hrs+ of break.. so me, gerrx, aikho and mich went to watch ratatouille while evi and wenting went to watch horror movie.. can you believe i actually slept in the theatre for the first time while watching.. this proofs that i'm dead beat.. haha.. tml going over to aikho hse to celebrate her b'dae and ton over her hse.. haha.. excited for it.. shall update sometime later.. :)

2007-08-26T18:18:00.000+08:00

yesterday woke up at around 10+am by genia's call.. haha.. so i woke up ended up slacking a bit thn went to bath and get ready to go meet genia at town.. went to take bus and ended up being late! oops! haha.. meet her at far east plaza thn we walk around lor.. both of us wanted to buy shoes.. ended up me and her bought 2 pair of shoes each.. haha .. is so cheap!! 2 pairs for only $36.. after buying our shoes at far east we went to food republic at wisma for lunch.. thn we went to hmv to take neoprint.. haha.. is been a long time since we take it for years.. and the neoprint was gone tat time together with my wallet.. haha.. finish taking we went to take bus to church.. we met hoon and grace together before going to church.. was walking to church thn feel kinda of wierd as i haven been to church for quite sometime.. after service we waited for khoon and shan to finish their things.. thn we take bus back to batok.. grace wanted to go pizza hut for dinner but end up we went back to my hse and order delivery instead.. haha.. all thanks to SHAN!!! watch tv together and have pizza for dinner.. after dinner gace and shan went home thn khoon and hoon went to accompany them.. while me and genia stayed at home playing com while i went to bath.. oh ya!! genia actually talk to nek nek on msn.. haha. lolx.. so funny and then they ended up toking things behind my back!!!! FOR WHAT YOU TELL ME..? haha.. they sleep at my hse yesterday night.. and thn we get to have girl's talk.. haha.. so many things to tok abt.. today woke up thn khoon went off first so left hoon and genia.. 3 of us were talking thn we suddenly we tok abt going to clubbing.. haha.. experience night life for once.. haha.. i can't wait for the day to come.. :)

2007-08-19T13:24:00.000+08:00

saturday..
woke up by nek nek msg.. gosh! we are late! suppose o meet 2.30pm at ps thn we both woke up at 1.30pm.. haha.. die man.. cofirm cannot reach on time.. haha.. call bao bei ask where is she.. thn tell me tat she meeting desmond at 3.00pm mahx.. haha.. i rush down.. wanted to watch rush hr together but got no more seats already.. thn the next timing a bit late.. cos desmond need to go off thn we going to go sakae for dinner.. so we decided to go starbucks for chill while waiting for nek nek and justin to come.. haha.. bo bian.. all canot watch.. se we wait until 5+ desmond went off first thn we go ps walk walk while waiting for time to pass by... justin went off first thn left me bao bei and nek nek.. we take train down to somerset thn walk to hereen.. we reach sakae there was queuing already.. haha.. luckily we manage got seats but is counter seats.. so a bit cramped.. reach le then like got 3 girls never eaten before like tat.. pia so many plates of sushi.. haha.. while eating many things happen wor.. haha.. oh ya! the manager seems to like my bao bei.. haha.. give her what she wans.. still got tofu specially for her.. haha.. me and nek nek don have andonly specify for her only wor.. after eatingwent to cine to accompany bao bei go buy movie ticket lor.. cos she watching mahx.. but me and hua hua cannot watch.. after that we went to take neoprint.. haha.. thn we go walk walk take photo.. very late le.. i accompanied nek nek to the bus stop to wait for the bus lor.. you KNOW WHAT HAPPEN..? the NEK NEK actually saw LAMBO GALLARDO! then she tell me.. haha.. the both of us got HIGH!! WE SAW lAMBO TOGETHER..! haha.. thn i slowly walk to bus stop take bus home lor..

friday..
fri have FOM progress test.. i think i have flung the paper.. studied til 2am+ the previous nite.. after sch went home to slp.. thn wenting msg me lor.. say we meet at city hall mrt station at 7.30pm.. so i bath le went off to meet my bao bei.. thn the stupid nek nek pang seh us.. kns! for what you tell me.. haha.. thn we walk to esplanade to look for a good spot lor.. while waiting.. her friends reach then we there standing lor.. genia call me.. haha.. so qiao wor.. we actually can meet dao wor.. as usual she bully me before she left.. haha.. the firework started.. haha.. so nice and very beautiful.. i like the heart shaped liked fireworks.. haha.. after finish watching we go marina square to help bao bei look for shoes.. haha.. cos her shoe got hole.. after buying shoes we went to carls junioir for dinner.. thn sit there chill and tok craps.. thewen jie is so cold.. canot tahan.. haha.. after eating we slowly walk to esplanade bus stop thn wanted to takebus home but no more bus already.. cos is already 12+am.. so i take cab home..

2007-08-10T23:55:00.000+08:00

today will be quite a long post.. haha.. today i couldn't wake up.. cos i sleep for few hours only.. but luckily gerrx give me morning call.. haha.. after we finish sch me, evi, aikho, nic and justin went to westmall for lunch.. thn after lunch justin, nic and me when to take bus to gleneagles to look for my beloved ah hua.. i shall not say much why i went there.. reach there i give her a call thn i think she feel surprised as we didn't tell her that we are going to look for her.. we were there to accompany her through the whole process.. and we feel very relieved as nothing happen.. really wanna THANK GOD for that! though we were quite tired but everything is worth for.. we decided to leave at abt 7pm plus.. but because of some nice shows that i get to watch we ended up dragging the time.. and thanks for the "show" wor.. if hua hua know wat i meant.. haha.. thn we decided to left as we don wan to disturb.. we went to tanglin mall for our dinner thn i take bus home.. so tired.. was sleeping throughout the whole trip.. haha.. reach home has a disagreement with dad and mum.. and make me so pissed off!!! GRRX!!! can't they just let me do wat i want to do..? why mus they always interfere with wat I am doing..? i am already a grown up person and i know how to take care of myself.. I AM JUST SO PISSED!!!

let's talk about yesterday first.. woke up around 1.30pm thn around 2pm i call the lazy pig (hua hua) to wake up.. haha.. her voice so cute thn very funny.. she told me to call her when i am leaving the hse to go aikho hse.. after bathing i left the house and take train to aikho's hse.. when i reach i put down my bag changed my shirt and the both of us went to supermarket to get our groceries and then I was wondering how come gerrx haven reach yet so i called her.. haha.. AND I FORGOTTEN to call her when i left the house.. OOPS! sorry.. haha.. i start preparing the dishes for dinner thn gerrx came along.. haha.. she is my ASSISTANT CHEF for the day wor.. not bad lar.. still can help me cut and cook the kantang thn still help me to cook other stuff but with me around of course.. haha.. sorry aikho darling.. have to make you go down twice to get tofu and honey.. the 3 of us really had lots of fun while preparing and cooking the dishes.. haha.. but the tofu has expired so we got to get a new tofu.. haha.. while preparing boon ting came thn later evi and melvin came oso.. the boon ting reach at 6.00pm and she came to her hse jus to inspection looking at the mirrors and kpo a while.. around 6.30pm off she goes to meet her friends.. haha.. after cooking dinner help aikho to clear up a bit thn i went to bath.. cos i really stinks! haha.. after that we start having our dinner.. when we are about to finish our dinner we heard fireworks outside.. and we quickly went into aikho's room and we get to see the fireworks.. it was so beautiful.. and best of all we need not to squeeze with other ppl.. haha.. aikho's hse rule: " NO FOOD SHOULD BE LEFTOVER!" haha.. so we mus try to finish our food.. haha.. after dinner we watched the worst american idol from the dvd.. haha.. and we were there laughing.. help to finish washing her dishes before we go cos I know that aikho will not wash the dishes and will leave there for days.. haha.. reached home was very tired and i went to bath.. thn play com till quite late i think abt 2.00am.. haha..

2007-08-04T13:37:00.000+08:00

I shall talk about yesterday.. yesterday after sch me and geradine went back to my hse and she waited for me to bath and change cos we are going quite a few places that day.. but at my hse something happen which makes me feel very lost.. I don know wat to do.. and i chose to keep quiet.. i am so STUPID.. all I can say is sorry to gerrx..after that we went to jp to get our stuff and we ate our long cravings at long john silver.. haha.. after that we take mrt to queensway to get her and mich contact lens.. I slept on the train.. haha.. having a headache and it felt so heavy that makes me feel like banging on the wall.. haha.. my beloved hua hua have to drag me walk here and there.. thn we take bus to her house and i saw her bro.. the features of his face is exactly the same! haha.. was playing with her in the room and playing com.. after that i cannot tahan already i ask her for panadol.. eat already i laid on her bed and bu zhi bu jue i fell asleep on her bed.. haha.. and she didn't even bother to wake me up.. haha.. we suppose to leave the hse at 6pm but i slp until 6.20pm thn i woke up.. haha.. i don dare to go out and look for her so instead I msg her.. haha.. thanks to her 'xian dan' which ease my headache.. haha.. all along i was msging with justin cos he wants to look for her at vivo to give her a surprise.. haha.. and she didn't find out until we left the hse justin call me.. haha.. i have to tok to him in eng as he is illiterate in chi.. haha.. lolx.. but toking to him in eng will make her suspicious.. so i mixed eng and mandarin while toking.. i flutter hile toking.. haha.. cos is difficult for me and she is looking at me.. haha.. she ask me who i say is my friends.. she feel a bit suspicious but still didn't find out.. haha.. all i can say that she is TOOT! OPPS! hua hua gonna kill me for that.. haha.. when we alight at the interchange we walk thru the mrt underpass and justin msg me that he was behind us.. haha.. he callled gerrx and give her a surprise.. haha.. sho look kinda of shocked! lolx.. so funny.. thn we go to gv to look for the movie timing lor.. wahaha.. my gerrx wanted to watch SIMPSONS so much and she finally gotta a chance to watch.. haha.. we went to buy the movie tickets and we went for dinner.. after dinner she bring me to a pet shop.. haha.. the dogs were so cute.. haha.. and then we go to the donut shop cos i wanted to buy donuts long long time ago le.. and my dearest gerrx promised to TREAT ME WITH DONUTS!!! haha.. my long cravings for DONUTS!! haha.. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!! THANKS FOR YOUR DONUTS!!! haha.. cos i have been complaining to her for days that i wan to eat donuts.. haha.. after buying we went to watch simpsons.. haha.. the movie was damn hilarious... we were laughing almost the whole entire movie.. after movie we take a stroll outside the wind was so breezy.. haha we take a few pics lar.. thn the 2 of them don wan to go off lar.. another 5 mins more and another 5 mins more.. haiz.. left me alone there to watch "live" show.. haha.. so bad.. thn we decided to go off lor.. justin went to take train back so me and gerrx wanted to go interchange to take 188.. when we reach there my last bus went off.. sobx sobx.. no more bus so no choice but the both of us have to take cab back home.. haha.. went home bath online a while and i tried the donuts.. so nice!!! THANKS HUA HUA!!!

to my BELOVED GERDAINE.. thanks for being with me when i needed you.. haha.. you really bring me a lot of laughter ever since i met you.. and i pormised you that whenever you need someone I will be there for you.. I LOVE YOU!!! :)

2007-07-22T01:42:00.000+08:00

few funny video clips to share.. tired to blog now.. haha..

2007-07-18T22:41:00.000+08:00

My favourite people.. The BUngS and Sisters HOOD family.. I simply just love them lots! :)

2007-07-18T22:05:00.000+08:00

today is a very very sweet sweet day for me.. haha.. went to sch as per normal thn until hotel security lesson ends it begin to feel something is not right at all but just couldn't tell.. so I chose to keep quiet and say nothing.. boon ting and aikho went to PMS thn left me, gerrx, mich and vee.. thn we went to have lunch at wm.. through the whole trip there i was so quiet.. didn't talk throught the entire trip.. hais.. i was wondering how come like that.. why suddenly they are so cold to me..? have i did anything wrong..? went to foodcourt I didn't even have lunch.. just sit down there dazing around.. we went back to sch by taking cab cos it was raining.. went to sch reach the classroom i just sit there stoning.. and i went to take a nap.. they left me alone in class.. I feel so sad at that point.. even my hua hua oso don wan to be with me.. hai yo.. then when lesson starting soon.. don know who wake me up.. thn i saw a happy house file on the table with a note asking me to see inside the content.. when I open the file.. i saw many photos.. Photos of me, gerrx, boonting, aikho, vee and mich.. I didn't read the content but when i saw the photos i feel so touched.. when i went out to look forthem outside the classroom I just cried out.. Tears just flow out from me.. Tears of joy and sweetness... Though we might have jus known each other for few months, but we have lots of sweet and memorable memories.. all is inside the Present that they made for me.. using all their effort and time to make such a beautiful present for me.. all along yesterday was planned well.. they actually went to aikho's hse to make this gift for me.. and I even msg gerrx to know more abt her dating.. ahd good lor.. tell me still can go gai gai.. but actually they were at aikho's hse.. for once i really thought they wan to abandoned me.. haha.. thanks for the surprise you all have given me! I'm so stupid that i actually believe them and without know everything.. THANK YOU AnD LoVE mY SISTERS SO MUCH!!! and now.. we have a family.. haha.. but the relationship between eack other is kinda of complicated.. haha.. neva mind.. as long as we are still one big family...

2007-07-15T22:11:00.001+08:00

some photos that I've taken at aikho's hse.. haha.. isn't nichole cute...? love her to bits! :)

2007-07-15T19:39:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to cathay house with my auntie ruth and her family to watch "harry potter and the Order of the Phoenix".. went to watch for free as it was a company event tat my auntie has.. the company actually book the grand cathay and another hall for the whole company and the client.. reach there it was so packed.. so many people over there having buffet.. haha.. should have reach there earlier thn we can get some food to eat.. haha.. after movie uncle drove me to redhill mrt station to meet boon ting lor.. i was so late for about 45 mins..? haha.. sorry bao bei wor.. didn't mean to.. meet up with her we went to buy chocolates for aikho's mummy.. is not god that we go there for dinner without bringing any gift.. haha.. reach aikho's hse went to greet her mum.. hah.. her mum look so young wor.. nicole wake up not long after we reach her hse thn we play with her.. she is so cute..!! a while later, her dad was home together with darren.. haha.. end up we play monopoly together with aikho, wenting, and bryan.. have our dinner there and we take a few pictures.. haha.. after dinner we had our desert and we watch a movie and all of us were laughing.. haha.. then we talk for a while and play with nicole thn me and boon ting take mrt home.. haha.. today is totally a slack day for me.. wake up eat lunch watch tv thn went back to slp until grandma wake me up for dinner and now here i am updating.. haha..

2007-07-08T23:34:00.000+08:00

today woke up kinda of late maybe around 2.10pm.. haha.. woke up no one in the hse so i just stared at the television and using com.. lazing around the hse doing nothing.. haha.. so until 6pm then i went to bath cos i am meeting the seventh at imm mahx.. i left the hse at 7pm and lishan is still not there yet.. reach imm already i called judi and meet her first lor.. end up me walking around in imm with judi and kelcy lor.. haha.. so wierd... walk around thn lishan and eugenia reach le lor.. haha.. went to ajisan to wait for seats thn kelcy went off first.. found a place to sit down le we didn't order first cos we are waiting for grace to come after her work.. haha.. was chatting and laughing through out the way.. grace come le thn we continue eating lor.. haha.. lishan start to give lecture already... lolx.. talk about lots of stuff.. hehex.. from marriage to children.. haha.. so imaginative.. finishing eating we just walk around cos many of the shops close already.. so we decided to went home.. me lishan and judi went to the same bus stop.. raining thn the 3 of us share under the same umbrella.. haha.. so pathetic wor.. anyway thanks for the "present" from lishan and the rest wor.. wat a nice present.. haha.. is been a long time since we go out like tat le.. Love ya all so muchies!!

2007-07-06T00:44:00.000+08:00

my this whole week have been going out la.. and i lazy to say.. so i jus tok abt thursday.. haha.. woke up quite late about 2.10pm like that.. then i charge my hp and play com lor.. not long later receive a msg from leonard.. ask whether have i watch transformers yet.. thn i say no.. he call and jio me and gerrx go watch lor together with the rest la.. but too bad evi not there.. she went back to indonesia.. gerrx cannot make it.. so i call wenting see meet where lor.. haha.. suppose tot meet at 4.30pm but end up i leave the house at 4.30pm.. haha.. reach le plaza sing. call her.. thn go find wenting and her sis at foodcourt.. thn over there only got the 2 of them plus desmond and jojo.. the rest haven come.. haha.. around 5.50pm leonard and joey came.. at last jun long came.. haha.. so long sia.. we watch the 6.25pm show.. the show is so nice and exciting la.. when come to the fighting part someone actually fall asleep.. haha.. and the person is DESMOND!!! haha.. after finishing the show we were all saying him la.. haha.. at the most exciting part he actually fall asleep.. haha.. after the movie jojo went off first and we went to have dinner than was chatting and laughing away.. abt 10.00pm leonard, junlong and joey went off to MOS lor.. got they got free entry before 10.30pm mahx.. after that we also went off lor.. they went to play pool la.. but i decided to go home lor.. finally i'm going to meet up with eugenia..haha..

2007-07-03T01:22:00.000+08:00

somethings to share.. haha.. lolx... quite funny! enjoy!

2007-07-03T00:24:00.000+08:00

i'm back.. tok abt weekends.. many many things happen.. on sat after exams when back home to rest thn meet gerrx, justin, evi, mel and my baobei wenting.. haha.. meet at paragon lor to settle gerrx stuff first.. thn we dedcided to go mohammed sultan there for our dinner.. went to eat bak kut teh.. when there saw jl, leonard and the rest of the bunch lor.. wah lao.. attitude very good sia.. don even bother to say hi or wat la.. walk pass us like transparent like tat.. mel and wenting were fuming mad lor.. don bother them la.. after dinner justin and gerrx went home lor.. so the rest of us go clubbing at cheekys again.. haha.. no more man! i don wan cheekys sia.. wanted to go double O but age limit is 21.. no choice lor.. evi's friend came along.. he reach singapore not long ago from australia and going back to indonesia on sun.. haha.. they ordered a bottle of bacardi with 2 mixers lor.. went there to chill for few hrs see them dancing on the dance floor.. haha.. johan came over for a while and he left lor.. until the clock struck 12am haha.. they celebrate a small one for me lor.. thanks for the kisses wor.. haha.. evi and wenting so sweet.. haha.. they give me a cup i don know mix with wat thn ask me to drink finish.. haha.. drink already not long i got a bit drunk liaos.. haha.. the next day thn i know wat they given me.. a half glass full of pure bacardi with whiskey and coke.. wah piang! no wonder la.. feel so giddy.. i vomited oso.. haha.. thn wenting help me to hail a cab home lor.. reach home bath le i vomited again.. haha.. feeling better la.. after that i go slp liaos lor.. on sun i woke up le.. thn ask mum wanna go out shopping a not.. so we headed to town lor.. went in to gucci to look for nice bags.. saw a few but is out of the budget lor.. so i decided not to buy le.. haha.. went to crumpler and mum bought me a black colour crumpler bag.. haha.. we went to john little lor..bought my adidas perfume thn go see got sales mahx.. they having moving out sales.. went to say undergarments thn haha.. bought quite a lot lehx.. but is cheap lor.. after taht we decided to went home thn i meet evi, wenting and aikho at control station to go regent heights for bbq lor.. aikho sister nicole is so so cute.. she has a very beautiful eyes.. haha.. went there didn't eat much lor.. but a recieve lots of blessings.. thanks anyway.. :) thn i went down with the rest to the swimming pool area with my hp along.. but not my bag la.. was toking and playing over there,, thn when they bring the bags down.. MY WALLET WAS MISsING SIA!! WTF!! obviously is being stolen la.. i was like already very... ... they help me to find oso don have lor.. hais.. so many things inside lor.. plus my this month allowance also lehx.. i cannot tahan any more so i called genia.. hais.. finally, i start to burst out in tears.. no choice le lor.. i walk home alone so lonely.. reach home i told mum.. thn daddy bring me to go police report lor.. wat a nice b'dae i had for this year la.. really don know wat to say lor..the policeman oso say i very unlucky sia.. stolen during my b'dae.. if i know who is this guy or girl... mANY PPL WILL GOING TO GIVE YOU A HARD THRASHING!!!!!!

ps.: thanks genia.. u are very IMPORTANT TO ME LA!! Okies..? haha.. thanks anyway.. love you lots and lots! muacks~!

2007-06-28T23:08:00.000+08:00

I am still in the process of having exams and it ends on saturday.. today i have economics exam.. all i can say is I FLUNG THE PAPER.. haha.. don know wat the hell the qn is asking.. jus write craps on the paper.. haha.. the paper is 1hr 30mins i finish the paper in 45mins thn i came out of the classroom le.. haha.. everyone came out with the word 'fail' written on their face.. haha.. went to lunch jus now at MOS with my sistaz.. thn we chat until we forget the time to go back study F/O sia.. haha.. tml having Front office gonna go read through again.. this is an important paper sia.. if i fail tat's it! haha.. can't wait for sat to come thn can go out enjoy with my sistaz and the seventh le.. miss the seventh so much lor.. :)

2007-06-21T19:34:00.000+08:00

You Are an Oatmeal Raisin Cookie

On the surface, you're a little plain - but you have many subtle dimensions to your personality.
Sometimes you're down to earth and crunchy. Other times, you're sweet and a little gooey.

What Kind of Cookie Are You?

You Are a Grilled Cheese Sandwich

You are a traditional person with very simple tastes.
In your opinion, the best things in life are free, easy, and fun.
You totally go with the flow. And you enjoy every minute of it!

Your best friend: The Peanut Butter and Jelly Sandwich

Your mortal enemy: The Ham Sandwich

What Kind of Sandwich Are You?

What Your Peanut Butter And Jelly Sandwich Means

Your eating style is gluttonous. If you like something, you're going back for seconds... no matter how full you are!

You have an average sweet tooth. While you enjoy desserts, they aren't exactly your downfall.

Your taste in food tends to be quite eclectic and wide. You are an adventurous eater, and you like many types of cuisines.

Admit it, you're a little trashy and low class at times. You're definitely more comfortable at a tattoo parlor than the theater.

You are a tough person who isn't afraid to live life fully. There isn't a lot that scares you.

You are laid back and extremely easygoing. You never make a fuss, and you try to enjoy every moment.

What Does Your Peanut Butter and Jelly Sandwich Say About You?

You Are Cookie Monster

Misunderstood as a primal monster, you're a true hedonist with a huge sweet tooth.

You are usually feeling: Hungry. Cookies are preferred, but you'll eat anything if cookies aren't around.

You are famous for: Your slightly crazy eyes and usual way of speaking

How you life your life: In the moment. "Me want COOKIE!"

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

You Belong in Barcelona

When it comes to Europe, you don't want to decide between culture and fun. You want art by day and a big party by night.
Barcelona is ideal for you. You can check out some Picasso, eat some tapas, take a siesta, and then dance all night!

What European City Do You Belong In?

kind of bored.. so i did a few quiz.. haha.. mugging in porcess...!

2007-06-19T19:54:00.000+08:00

this will be a fast post.. haha.. cos need to go study for next week exam.. yesterday after school wanted to go home but was dragged by evi and wenting out to accompany them to jurong east together with melvin, leonard and johan.. and i was so innocent being drag by them.. haha.. went to jurong there to have dinner and thn we went to arcade to accompany the guys cos leonard and johan wanted to play some stuff.. while waiting a sudden loud scream from me.. haha.. what happen lehx...? the stupid melvin la go ask evi to bite me.. haha.. thn short while i cried cos very pain lehx.. immediately my hand kanna blue black liaos.. lolx.. thn they wanted to watch movie but i wanted to go home cos feeling very lazy plus tired.. thn bo bian my bao bei wenting wan me to go watch thn we go watch fantastic 4 lor..the movie was quite nice la not bad.. haha.. after i went home.. wanted to study but too tired.. so today i goona mug hard already.. no more going gai gai and hopefully try to resist going out with my sistaz... haha.. gonna go study now!

2007-06-11T21:59:00.000+08:00

what happen during my week end lehx..? on sat morning went to me hoon, genia and khoon at the jurong west and we went to jurong west complex de gym.. haha.. went to did exercise for an hour plus thn bath and went home.. wanted to take a nap cos very tired but evi called saying that going to jp to buy JL present with melvin and aikho.. was kinda of late cos very lazy to move around.. reach le went to chose the present thn end up buying a lighter for him.. after tat we went to evi's hse cos evi and aikho wan to change clothes.. reach there we were talking then me and melvin kanna bully by evi's cousin.. haha.. poor us! cos we were early as the rest are meeting 6pm+ at clementi.. waiting for JL to come thn after that we went to take mrt to clmenti to meet the rest.. haha.. when we were waiting at the coffeeshop johan, leonard, jowy ant the girls still got the rest came but lazy to mention.. haha.. were eating bbq seafood for dinner JL ordered a lot of stuff.. haha.. after dinner walk around thn we share cab down to DBL O.. but due to some circumstances me, evi and aikho went o cheekys instead.. after not long melvin and JL came over and come after wenting.. haha.. stayed there till abt 2am+ thn we decided to go home cos wenting and evi were drunk.. haha.. so i take cab home.. as for sunday.. waiting for dad to come home with mum for dinner as he jus came back from shanghai.. was happily discuss where to have dinner so i went to bath.. went into the room to change clothes and suddenly things change drastically.. i couldn't take it anymore so i ran out of the house meeting aikho to go here hse.. thru my trip there i was so depressed.. tears jus can't stop flowing.. reach aikho hse.. i fianlly burst and i can't take it anymore.. luckily there is aikho.. haha.. ater calmimg down we had dinner at her hse thn i chatted with her thn went home.. hopefully things at home will change better..

2007-06-02T00:34:00.000+08:00

On thurs woke up in the morning go bath and off i go with my to the hospital with mummy to visit my cousin.. since it's public holiday there is no shuttle bus to the blk so we have to walk there under the bright sunny hot sun.. haha.. stayed there for a couple of hrs thn was kinda of bored so i used my labtop in the hospital lor.. i went off at around 5+ to wisma to meet up with my seven.. everyone was present except shan.. but anyway i'm used to it though it was kinda of disappointing tat she did not come.. waited for everyone to reach so we went to have dinner at taka.. after tat we walk around to digest thn decided to go tcc for a chat.. had so much fum chatting and was being suan by them.. wateva la.. haha.. after that around 11+ le decided to go home lor.. thn on fri got morning call thn i woke up.. was kinda of sleepy.. cos was chatting with ojisan on msn till 3am.. haha.. eat a bit for lunch thn go pom pom.. supposed to meet geradine at 12.45 at somerset but was kinda of late le thn call colin he oso late.. haha.. so we decided to meet up and go together before meeting gerx.. reach le when to cine to collect our tickets thn we walk around lor.. went to look for ojisan and the rest of the ppl.. was quite a huge bunch but thn didn't follow them cos was kinda of wierd.. went to watch shrek 3 together.. after watching the big grp of us went to hereen for a walk thn we head down to bugis.. thn at bugis everyone disperse.. so only me, gerx and colin walk ourselves lor.. walk walk thn went to have mango desert.. haha.. was so yummy and the mango is nice... after that around 10+ le decided to go home.. gerx went totake bus so left the 2 of us to take mrt home.. yawns~! so tired le.. go ZzZzz liaox.. :)

2007-05-26T00:14:00.001+08:00

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2007-05-16T19:57:00.000+08:00

yesterday in sch was kind of fed up.. so pissed off that i don feel like staying back after sch to do housekeeping project.. lucky we stayed for only a few mins.. colin and mich were like cooling me down.. after sch feel like going out to study.. so a big bunch of us went to burger king to have our lunch first.. all of us were so hungry.. after eating we were thinking of going where to study.. thn in the end mich, aloysius, colin, me, isa and nicholas went to justin hse to study lor.. sleep in the train.. was so tired.. reach his hse i rush to his toilet.. haha.. so urgent.. we went to the basement to study with the air con on cos was so warm and stuffy... was studying on tourism for few hrs thn feel like sleeping.. thn in the end everybody cannot concentrate anymore.. so the boys decided to play playstation while me and mich were rotting.. haha.. after playing till 9pm+ they stopped.. and we took a few photos.. we look so funny and dumbs~!! haha.. lolx..

2007-05-10T23:21:00.000+08:00

finally my econs progress test is over.. haha.. feel relieved abt it.. I did all the best i could already.. reach sch everyone looks so serious studying econs and is like feeling so tensed.. haha.. nxt wk is tourism progress test i think.. but anyway today period was so long and draggy.. almost fall asleep thru the few periods until housekeeping i cannot take it already and i'm drop dead.. lolx.. after sch me, aikho, evi, colin, aloy and isa went to causeway ot for dinner.. i got my name in korean.. shall post the pic on next time.. haha.. after dinner we walk around thn evi, aloy and isa went back first.. so left the 3 of us shopping around.. went to cold storage and we were laughing in the cold storage cos of me.. hmmm.. haha.. tired le.. going to do my homework now..

Revived~!!

2007-05-05T13:52:00.000+08:00

me & aikho
evi & jas
colin & jas
me & michelle
aikho evi jaslin

colin jas michelle

I'm back! haha.. my blog has revived.. all thanks to li shan.. thanks sweetie! sch started and i like my class a lot.. haha.. everyday will always laugh like siao siao de.. haha.. but i'm having a handful of projects to complete.. and i'm having econs progress test on thurs! my weakest sub lehx.. need to study really hard.. but thank God i know a huge bunch of friends tat never fails to make me laugh and help me in my studies.. Few photos taken when we're together..

2006-12-29T00:24:00.000+08:00

i'm back! haha.. been a long time since i blog.. jus came back frm hong kong not long ago la.. went to cold storage with mum and cousin to buy some for te ingredients for tml dinner.. thn after tat rush home bath and take cab down to meet eugenia at bugis.. the first time i was damn late.. haha.. didn't walk there long so we decided to take mrt down to orchard shopping lor.. went to mango inside isetan.. finally the mango sales went down to final reduction le.. wahaha.. waited so long le lehx.. thn i bought a cardigan and a top lor.. genia oso bought 2 top.. haha.. now everywhere having after christmas boxing sales.. shop around went to taka de pepper lunch for dinner.. chat quite a lot with her.. thn we went to jason supermarket at paragon to buy my things and we went home lor.. walk all the way to ps de bus stop.. cos thinking tat it will have seats on the bus if we board there.. now very tired le, going to sleep..

2006-11-24T00:40:00.000+08:00

my com going to be sent to the grave le.. mum got someone to fix it some other day.. today went to imm and bought another set of computer.. and the current one will be put in her room.. jus back from genting and next week got to fly to hong kong.. haha.. excited towards this trip cos many people will be going.. dad fly off to shanghai on mon le.. won't be back to celebrate christmas with me.. sad.. will be back six months later.. so long.. this few days is so boring to me and got the urge to go shopping and buy many many clothes.. haha.. went go hk will mai dong xi chi dong xi mai dong xi chi dong xi.. haha.. miss dad so much!!!

2006-11-06T23:36:00.000+08:00

let's talk abt yesterday.. hmmm.. went out with eunice and eugenia yesterday to marina square.. was abt to went out of the hse thn a call came.. eunice called and say she will be dropping by to fetch me together.. so i waited lor.. thn when we reach marina we went to have lunch to celebrate eunice birthday lor.. cos don know wat to buy for her present so treat her for lunch.. we ate quite a lot and it was so full.. haha.. after eating we go shopping walk around and i bought 2 tops in the end.. saw a green dress at zara was struggling whether wanna buy it was $89.90.. haha.. but all of us say it was nice.. haha.. feel so tired during shopping.. *yawns* thn keep starting to yawn non stop and yawning is really contagious.. haha.. shop till abt 5pm+ decided to go home.. almost fall asleep in the car.. reach home went to sleep thn woke up watch tv.. haha.. as or today.. woke up and went to supermarket with granny to buy grocceries.. thn went to bath pack my bag and off the meet hoon and eugenia at my uncle's condo.. why? on sat the 3 of us at coffebean were discussing to go play squash and gym on mon.. reach there and they jus alight the bus.. haha.. we went to change at my uncle hse and went to the gym.. was exercising for at 40mins thn decided to play squash.. book the court for 2 hrs and we were playing.. haha.. the 3 of us were beginners only and ended p keep picking the balls.. haha.. had so much laughter during the game.. i did sweat a lot.. after the game we sit down on the court discussing where to go for dinner.. after tat we went to changing room to bath and off we go to panjang for dinner.. went to a jap restaurant for dinner.. were talking many stuff in secondary life and we have a great laugh! haha.. after dinner we went home lor..